SnowScar

2008-01-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..... testing.... testing... well... i'm back to this blog again... how time flies... i got almost 1 yr nv post liaoz... after long time of thinking... i tink i still wanna come back here to pour watever i have inside mi... at least here no need find any1 to tok to.... juz type and post tt's all... not as if any1 will see it.. lolx... so tired.... maybe tml den start blogging.. today juz type for fun.... guess i can have really long entry ba.... i have so much so much inside mi.... sighzzzz.....

2007-04-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

juz back home.... suffering from severe headache... i feel hurt... shattered and broken.... y is this happening? watever she wan.. i try my best to give.. even thou i really dun wish to do it... but all for her... end up wat happen? take mi as a fool and cheat mi... flirt behind mi... and push the blame to my fren say he is the 1 who flirt her.... i really dun understand... y say u love mi when u already dun... am i really tt so stupid and nice to be cheat? once again i am cheated by gal... y i always get cheated and ditch by gal de?! WTF?! this is pushing mi to my limit... i really cant control myself anymore le... i really goin insane becos of all this man... this really is pushing to the wall liaoz... i dunno when i will explode myself~ this is driving mi nuts... dun tink i will meet anybody for the time being... i feel so chui already.... so goddamn ta ma de chui~! u made mi hate u.... i'm juz another guy to be flirt by u.... and yet i believe so much in u~ FUCK~!

2007-04-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm... really very long no blog... also dunno who will come see.. haha... well... also not blog for ppl to see... i onli blog when i feel so fan so fan den i blog.. come here to vent out all my unhappiness... dunno wat have i been doin... feeling shiit... damn shiit... things are not goin smooth... lots and lots of problem... suddenly i really feel damn lonely... 1st siihuii i cant contact her anymore.. cos her bf is back... glad tt they are ok laioz... 2nd. zry cant tok as much as she used to do... cos of her bill.. tt wan i understand... 3rd. thou now i got a gf... but somehow i feel..... empty... maybe cos she tends to slp till very late and end up form morning till noon i always nth to do... and plus she is so far away from mi.. i wan to find her also hard... onli way of communication is sms.. call.. msn.. or audi... and she needs more attention but i understand y lah.. i'm trying my very best to give her all the attention i wan... but somehow it dun seem to be enuff to her... and she feels tt i dun love her... but she dunno how hard i am trying... i can even argue with my brother zry becos of her... i really dunno.. seriously... on the surface i tink i look happy... but deep down inside mi... i feel dark and empty... it's all damn messy inside... she dunno wat she wan.. her confusion confuse mi as well.... maybe i'm juz not gd enuff... but i am willing to try.. i can dun mind at all with all her past... i juz wan to be able to give wat i can... haiz... i am really trying very hard... but who can see? nobody... wat happen last nite really shattered my heart... it's not easy to place everything back together... i feel so badly stabbed... haiz... FAN AR!!!!!! si liao bu shi hao lor........... haiz........... take mi away pls...... b4 i go crazy myself......

2007-03-27T08:56:00.000+08:00

juz back home... from a nite of tonning... didnt wan to go home.. so decided to ton.... SH dun wan mi to ton de... and she also nv plan to go speedy de... but due to wat happen to mi and some1 in the family... she decided to come down... i'm really gateful to her and Meow for tt.. thankz~ but as they dunno abt my blog so i dun tink they will see this... spend the nite at speedy play audi.. knn.. my fucking cb hand damn pain... but well.. tt pain is nth compared to the pain tt i am feeling deep inside mi... i noe this is the worse! cos i nv felt this way b4... i hate him... i hate everything he do... watever i have done is rubbish in his eyes... to him i'm juz a worthless piece of shit or rather bacteria living in his house... after speedy... mi, SH, rain, chuan and meow... we went to Mustafa to shop... do lots of crazy stuff there... pics will be uploaded below... den chuan complain say hungry.. knn... keep on kpkb say hungry... den say wan to eat prata... and we actually walked from mustafa all the way till boon keng~ end up eat mac.... ccb... tot eat prata still ok.. cheap mah... mac so ex... but chuan help mi paid some lah... thx huh bro~ den sit there tok cock sing song till 7:05 den we went our own seperate way home... b4 tt at 6+ meow already left with SH... SH looks really tired... tink now she is slping like pig... lolx... reach home at aro 8:15a.m received a sms from kudkud... thankz for her concern... as well as Jezzie who is worried for mi... dun worry... i am fine... *at least i tink i am* came home... tt fucker remove the damn modem power cable.... i noe where it is.. so here i am using the net again... later gonna pass to my bro to use... so sian... gonna slp soon... at least when he ocme back i wont hear any of his dog bark~! si bei kp... ok.. shall upload the pic here... ^^

looks painful? not as painful as my heart feels now... this is nth at all....

good food from mr Ah Neh of Mustafa... lolx~!

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my dragon robe~! swee bo? lolx~!

introducing Mrs Kazer and Miss Rain!!! LOLX~ Lamershit~! >.>

ok lah.. tt's all.. wat a boring entry... where shall i ton tonite... FUCK MAN~!

2007-03-23T11:21:00.000+08:00

haiz.... wat can i blog sia... i also dunno wat to blog liao lah... like nth much to blog also lor.. .these few days always camp myself up in speedy lan shop... ya.. ppl tink i am siao... got net at home y i dun wan to use? not i dun wan to use... well... its cos some1 somebody in my house purposely dun let mi use it lah... stupid rite? alway say will keep the power cable at nite when he go to slp.. but actually its all fake lor... he didnt keep it... he let my bro and sis use til mid nite... den they keep it.... somehow or rather... i got the feeling where he keep it... 1st it was in the storeroom the cupboard for 2 days... den ytd he change the location... i cant find it... but so funny.. juz onli.. i go this feeling tt the cable is somewhere in the living rm... and i juz walk to this stand tt is place at the corner of our living rm... i open the drawer... and to my surprise... it's inside! so zhun sia... how come will so zhun? nv had something tt zhun in my life lah.... maybe a dying man is more zhun ba.. let him happy abit b4 he die... haha... the feeling of my tt awful dream is getting so strong day by day.... will it really happen? i wont purposely avoid it... if its mean to happen.. it will happen... die also gd lah... i'm so sick and tired~ haiz~ pls end all these... sighz~

2007-03-14T22:54:00.001+08:00

too bo liao nth to do liaoz.. decided to blog now... currently now at speedy lan shop... sianz.... audi i play like shit... haiz... wat song i play also cannot make it.... si bei de sian... recently so much problem all coming up~~ work is 1... next is ppl... and 1 of them i shall not mention who... tt perosn damn powerful sia... the tot of tt person onli can give mi headache.. and its real headache... i dunno watever she did is for wat la... wan to make mi hate u also no need like this de ok? i rather u juz disappear like this... wat for make mi looks like some kind of asshole who let u down? who is the person who let the other party down? sianz... next is the so called new fren who i noe thru cat... ya.. he is abnormal... and to be frank.. i nv like guys who are not normal... he seems to be proud of wat he is.... this i dun give a damn... dun tell mi all the cow and chicken story to mi lah.. i am not interested... it makes mi feel like puking... and pls lah.. tok with brain k? it's not always very nice to be so direct~ tok with abit of brain will be so much more better rite? ya i noe... i am noob in audi... ya... i bo lui lah... ya i no look lah... den? how much better are u compared to mi? at least i'm not a some kind of chao ah qua!!! knn! sian... now sitting behind mi... fuck lah!

2007-03-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

2007-03-12T14:01:00.000+08:00

long long time no blog le.... no ppl will kp mi for not blogging le... haha.... how shoik?! haha... nth much happen also... went to chalet... it's considered ok lor... made a few frens there... but too lazy to get contact from them when the chalet ends.... during the chalet... i really bth le... so i sms sab.... asking her y she nv reply mi and stuff like this... onli when i sms her den i noe... it's a break up... a silent wan... and u noe wat? I FUCKING HATE SILENT! nvm.... she wan do this to mi also can lah... i dun care lah... now i'm single again... and i'm leading a much more jerky life... haha!!! i'm so proud to say... i'm flirting aro an everywhere i go... haha.... single life is so much more better! damn r/s! damn love! i love the way my life is now.... i nv wanted to be like this.... since she treat mi like shit.... i'll show u how shit i can be... i can go bastard aro as well... and now every1 tot i'm the 1 who let u down! well done... wat a nice and well plan trick... i'm gonna be like so low life asshole who will keep disturbing u and ur life... u wan to silent... i will give u peace... after the break up... i've change alot... i've cut my hair... wrap my phone... and do lots of changes... haha... i so love myself now la! shall upload my new pic here.... anyway i dun tink any1 will see also... haha....

with my newly coloured hair... hohoho

bo laio take with sunglass... siao ta bor! woot~!

2007-02-27T11:04:00.000+08:00

back to blog..... cough cough cough.... sian... been coughing like siao... cough until i feel my lungs like flying out liaoz... sianz... well.... let's tok abt ytd.... went to bugis with my sister.... wan her to help mi see which top to buy cos i got see a few tt i like... well... she really got better taste then mi lah... lolx.... after tt we went shopping aro bugis street... den saw this store selling those accessories... the chain caught my eyes... so i went in to take a look... saw a variety of chains... den i was looking at this chain with a cross on it... looks quite nice.... but my sis say not nice... she brought mi another 1... this wan is damn chio lah... so i bought it.... stupid chain cost mi $14.... but mei say it's worth it.. cos she bought hers for $20.... lolx! noob! later i shall upload the pic of it... love it sia.. but damn heavy... after tt mei bought a neclance for herself... heart shape wan.. quite nice also lah... $18... wah lau ehh si bei X... den we went to mac.. she took her lunch there after tt she go her bf house liaoz.. as for mi... i rush to speedy to pak lan b4 it rains and wait for Z to come and show off my chain to her... muahahahha!! played lan till aro 8.... went for dinner blah blah blah.... go ps... saw uncle J.C.... play max tune with him... too long nv play.. rusty le.. keep banging here and there... thou i still win lah... lolx.... den go home laioz... si bei sian.. later also dunno wan to do wat sia... lao po is sick.... down with the damn fever again..... lao po... pls do take gd care of urself k? get well soon! love ya! muack~! ^^

this is the pic of my chain... nice bo? haha... XD

2007-02-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

ohh lei lei.... ohh la la... wa si lin lao bei.... lolx! i am back to blog... yea i noe.... my lao po and Z will be happy to see my blog... dunno wat' so nice to read... muz be my half pile water very funny ba.. watever lah! ytd.... went down to speedy to pak lan.... play Ghost Online... now lvl 31 liaoz sia!! hohoho!!! shiny shiny weapon... ppl see liao eye sore... lolx! after tt at aro 6p.m Z came... we are suppose to meet and go bugis together... at aro 7.... we start to walk down to bugis... yea... Z si bi ku ku.... no sense of direction wan lah... from parklane she dunno how to walk to bugis.... NOOB~! haha.... den we go bugis village... look for my wristband... nth nice actually... was tinking of give up le... but near the end.. this store caught my eye... cos they got sell those iron on skull pic la... did found the wan i like. but it's in white... =.= sianzzzz den as i look further in... i saw wristband! not very nice also.. the skull like all got ram by lorry.. all deform de... until i hand itchy... i flip thru... den saw this particular design which i like! lolx... bought 1... and Mr Z as usual.. bought tt stupid black and white pig stuff... lolx! after tt go bugis arcade watch ppl play game.. blah blah blah.. eat at hawer..... den went back speedy play game... now here comes the nice part.... last nite.... Mr Z GO bf say he jealous... cos Mr Z is very close with mi... den i pm mi.... "xiao di di... wat is ur problem?" *he onli 16 lah... scarli peh hor we also dunno...* see.. i so polite lehz.. ask him wat is his problem... den this fellow.. give mi very fantastic and colourful reply... he scold mi Fuck lah... PCB lah... wah lan ehh... all those nvm... i cannot ta han tt PCB... who the fuck he tink he is.... scold mi PCB later i Pua his Lan Jiao den he noe... of cos... i screwed him back... i say.... "siao ehh.. play where wan? not happy come out tok lah" this time de reply better still.. "come out for wat? see ur LJ face for fuck?" wah! he scold mi LJ face sia.... he tink he si bei yan dao ar? maybe he got CB face.. with a line right in the centre of his face? LOLX! den i replied... "lai lah.... play where wan.... say lah... hum ar?" he replied " i play where wan ur tai ji ar?" pls noe... his hokkien damn fuck up... is dai ji.. not tai ji... tai ji is old uncle and auntie morning do at cc de.... so i give him the final blow " nv play say nv play lah hor... dun act pai kia behind the screen lah.. woodland si bo? i go find u lah knn" and tt's really th final blow... no reply from him... so sad... this ppl here.. so lame lah... act like got tua lan pa ji behind the screen... actual fact... got hotdog not eggs.... sianz.... after tt i heard tt he dun dare to contact Mr Z... but later t nite he did lah... den he apologise to Mr Z for using such words... but i tell Z... haha... he apologise to u... but if u wan mi to let him off... over my dead body.... ask him go reserve bed at any hospital tt he like lah... let mi find out who he is... i sure wack the hell out of him! make sure his lan jiao drop on floor and run away! si bei du lan.... oh ya.... i wanna thankz my beloved lao po.... lao po! thanz for the bracelet u brought... it's really very nice.... i shall upload the pic of my wristband and bracelet.... hehe.... thankz u all for reading my this buay gan ang mo blog.... hohohoho..... Mr Z... i got 2 words for u...... KP!!!!!! muahahahahahahahahhahah! lao po... i love u! muack~!

the bracelet my lao po brought for mi. she engrave the name her self de.... ^^

the wristband i bought ytd.... nice? haha... i love it lah!

ok tt's all lah... blogging si bei tiring.... lolx!

2007-02-15T10:27:00.000+08:00

well.... back to blog.... as u all can see from my tag board... my lao bans are questioning mi y i nv blog... nv blog cos nth happen wat. blog si mi?! wah lau ehh..... ok lor... i qin chai luan blog lah... no fish prawn also good lah (in hokkien) well... ytd is valentine's day!!! WEEEE!!!! so happy lah!!! all go have fun with their bf lah.... gf lah..... ah gua fren lah..... les fren lah.... gay fren lah.... for mi..... mine is the most powderful wan.... i go plaza sing and rot... see my frens spending $150+ on sweetland to get loads of toys home.... they pro lah... kp getting jackpot.... then ppl aro them was like O.O wah! den i was tinking... "Wah si mi lan jiao? got money u also can win...." stupid ku ku... all behave like some china turtle.... nv see ppl play game b4 like tt.... and they got loads of sweets lah.. so i told Chuan.... "siao ehh.... ur sweet so much... havent new yr.... eat also eat until bo kay liaoz lah..." haha.... see.... i say le... NTH to blog wat... feel so stupid... =.=" oh ya... juz now was too bo liaoz.. went to surf in youtube and found this video... for all those siao gin na who like audition like mi... muz see hor... how i wish sg also got such kind of songs for audi... this songs are my type of songs wat.... =.=ZZZzzz... stupid audi... no brain... such nice song dunno how to put in... stupid cocksters!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zZ6jUNnQFc

2007-02-12T02:22:00.000+08:00

finally back home le... 1st i must say.... lao po.... i'm sry for not able to let u contact mi today... was working... sry to make u worry so much.. .really sry... well.... business as usual wasnt gd... lots of ppl went up to rooftop. but all got coupon wan.... so it's still equal to no sales.... sux... whole day onli sold 3 tickets.... sianz... today Z brought her bro down to find mi... haha... he's such a cute fellow... now Z blame mi for brainwashing her bro. cos her bro has been so called "deveilfied" by mi... haha... soon i will win her bro's heart over....muhahahahahaha!! well.... today business is bad... but got a kind customer gave mi $20 tips sia... so shoik... haha!! went aro suntec today... hoping to find something i can buy for my lao po as valentine and our 1 mth anniversary is coming.... but seriously.... the gifts are all so ex... haiz... so i went up to my fav place.... ARCADE! haha... but i didnt play my max tune lor... i went to the place where gals like to bring their bf to... the plac where they can catch toys... over there... something caught my eyes.... it's Stitch and her gf... so cute! valentine's edition de... each got a heart wan. but muz catch 1 by 1... and my fren told mi say it cost $16 per piece outside... so i hand itchy give it a try... using the onli $20 i got sia... so sad rite? and guess wat?! i got it!!! haha..... but i dunno will my lao po like it anot... now i try upload the pic... hehe... i like them alot lah... hopefully it's really i like and my lao po will like as well...

this is it.... cute mah? lao po... if u see this... tell mi u like it anot hao mah? i would love to give them to u... love u! muacks~!

2007-02-07T08:29:00.000+08:00

another morning entry... wanted to blog at nite... but was too tired to do so. well.. nth much went on... still the same old sucky life... but recently i dunno y... i like to notice ppl aro mi when i take public transport... haha... have u ever wonder... how clean can put mrt grab pole be? well.. it looks normal to all of us... in fact all of us grab on it b4 rite? same for mi too. till 1 day.. i notice this auntie who is standing beside mi... grabbing the grab pole as well... den i saw her doin this... use her hand to "wipe" her face... den grab the pole again... so it was kinda... her oil from her face will be on it... nvm.... moment later... she use her hand to clear her eyes de bak sai (dirt from the eyes) den nvc clear it on tissue on wat. she grab the pole again. den i feel the pole is SO CLEAN now... =.= den came in some students.... yea active students... sweating away... cos the shirt also wet.... come in on... LEAN on the pole.... OMFG~ i sian diaoz... and singaporeans are really typical kaypo... ytf in front of Gleneagles got accident... ALL start to keep staring staring... look at the car lah... trying to find the driver? come on lah kaypos... wat can u do when u see this? ur EYE POWER can shift the cars away? or heal the poor injured man? cock rite? sheesh~ and i was so irritated by the asshole who sits beside mi... i already so big size... he is bigger... a godzilla... dunno for wat fuck... keep looking at mi... lim bei si bei yan dao ar? dunno he kua si mi lan jiao~ den nvm... keep digging his pig nose in front of mi... wah lau ehh!! almost puke lah... ok lah.. shall not tok abt all this idiotic stuff anymore... had a bad outing... yea... some1 say see my face also du lan.... den dun see lah.... haiz..... cant contact my lao po at nite de... so damn sian.... luckily every morning will be able to see her morning sms.... tt's something i will always look forward to. lao po.. do take care huh... love ya! ^-^

2007-02-02T11:56:00.000+08:00

haiz.... a few days no blog onli got ppl make noise liaoz... so i tink i muz blog abit lah hor.... well.. nth much goes on for the past few days.... went to esplanade library... was hoping to find the book i wan... end up dun have... so went to MPH at city link mall with Z. we 2 like idiot sia... look up and down... to and fro... cannot find... end up it's juz on the table in front of the entrance there nia... haha... saw the diff kind of cover for tt book.. dun have the 1 i wan. so end up i buy the least commonly found wan. i still wan to find the black and red cover de!!! argh~! after buying the book. went to had dinner at raffles city. aftermath we went back home le. thou i nv find the cover i wan. but i'm satify le... den ytd... went to Speedy to play Lan.... saw Meow... with her currently audi bf... ok i was ben thrash like shit with them.... watever lah.. i noe i sux in audi... den went to ps to meet up with a few frens... spend the nite toking crap.. toking cow and bull story... yea.. they keep luffing.. but not mi... reach home at 12+ played audi till aro 4 den slp... haiz.... still tink wat i should i do later... maybe can meet Z to get my book. cos she take my book home.. she say bao mei mei laio den give mi. so i wont spoilt the cover... haha... THANKZ BROTHER! ^-^ well... as for today... nth much to say.. pretty piss off.... tt's all i can say.... sighz~

2007-01-26T10:21:00.000+08:00

50hrs had pass... still there's no news of her... i goin crazy... really goin crazy soon... diff ppl tell mi diff things... some say... i muz wait for her... vice versa also got ppl say... i shouldnt wait.. maybe she already got some1 else... haiz.. i dunno how lah! FAN ARH!!!! went down to esplanade to work last nite... saw my gan mei YT and her bf. yea... they look loving... give my blessing to them... at least they are so much better than mi. heard her say the story of my gd buddy CR. tt his gf zao sai him. the silly ass still went down to sch to look for her. but end up onli see her holding the hand of another guy. FUCK MAN! BITCH! sianz~ went back home at aro 11 from Clarke QUay... luckily got my bao bei mei xiao hui to keep mi acc. reach home do nth and rot. yea rotting... hoping to see something from her.but still... haiz... chest had been hurting almost every moment. i breath in it hurts. like telling mi stop breathing then it wont hurts... haha.. how i wish i could. "where are u my baby?" i can take it no more... ARRGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

today is the 25th le.... onli 2 days had passed.... times seems to pass so slowly... image of her keep popping up in my mind... juz like wat Z had said... it's all the small small little things tt she do makes mi feel this way... it's all this small small little things make mi feel so attached to her... last morning got her call... she's still crying... she say her dad beat her till her legs bleed and got blue black... she say she cant walk... she's crying when she said tt... her dad wan to ban her form goin to sch for 1 mth... WAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hearing all these are bad enuff to upset mi... juz b4 we put down the phone.. the last 3 words she say to mi... almost break mi down to tears... it's so pain inside... so pain till no matter how i act... i still cant hide the saddness and pain within mi... this morning wake up... still... no call from her... keep looking at my phone... ppl tot i'm looking at time... i'm not... i'm hoping to see something else... a call... or even juz 1 sms also can... but....no... i receive none of it... i dunno how long can i carry on like this... i feel so damn shit.... and btw.... Z i'm sry to have cos u so much problem... these few days enjoy urself k? i wont go and disturb u... dun wan u to feel so bad over wat had happen to mi... i also kinda starting to lose the mood to crap or even tok... i also seldom tok at home now... haiz... "how are u doin now baby? are u ok?" haiz....

2007-01-24T02:49:00.000+08:00

today is juz so WRONG!!!! haiz.... we were caught... i'm not allowed to see her, meet her nor contact her again... all this nvm.... but WHY HAVE TO BEAT HER?! not happy.... beat mi lah... she didnt do anything wrong ok?! damnit! nv feel so powerless b4... dunno wat i should do now... really muz thx zrystal and charlynnn for comforting mi today... thou i still feel like shit now... but who gonna give a damn fuck abt it?! cos i myself also dun care... my heart feels so pain... i really dunno wat can i do.... i wan to noe how is she doin now... did her father beat her until very bad? all this i wanted to noe so much... but i cant... i cant even get to hear her voice again... when she tok to mi on the phone with her crying voice... my whole heart sank... i dunno wat to say to her... juz ask her to study well for her O... dun even noe if she can come in here to take a look anot... if she really did i come in.. i juz wan to say.... "Baby..... I Love U!" :'(

2007-01-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

back from ps... went to play lan with Rainy and her bf chuan... it was suppose to be a chance for mi to relieve the stress i have within mi... but everything starts to turn out so damn wrong not long after i reach there... i received the sms from her... we exchanged 3 sms... and everything between us had come to an end... i was so stun till i dunno wat i should do... i really dun understand... no reason no nothing... and it's over juz like this... i wanted to noe y... but she wont reply mi nor answer my call... went into audition and played with serena... this is the 1st time i playd so well when my mood is so suck up.. initially was well... after tt i start to miss... cos my vision become blur... how to see clearly when there is tears in ur eyes? i dunno y... it juz hurts... hurts so much tt i cried.. i cried over her... wo bu gan xin... if she've fallen for some1 else... y not juz tell mi straight? rather than end this in such manner... i hate it... but luckily nobodyu noe tt i cried... after tt mi and chuan went to ps to play maximum tune... i know... i suck up in the game... i bang everywhere... along the way home... i'm glad tt Z called mi to chat with mi... muz thankz her for trying to console mi... even now i still feel so upset over her... i dunno how long it will take for mi to get over her... i noe i love her so... but she nv noe how much i have put in for her... how much i have tried all juz for her... but now... it's all down into the drain... i hate this... i really hate this... ARGH~!

2007-01-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

back to blog again... had some fun goin out with Z. haha... so sry tt i got really bad headache... reach home... saw my bro alone in the room with lights off... he is not slping... i knew something was wrong.... it was all becos of my dad again... it's always him who affect every1's mood. he tink he is the biggest in the god damn fmaily? fuck u understand?! we are no longer small kids to let u anyhow scold again... i noe in the whole family he onli see mi bu shuang... bu shuang say lah... tell mi straight in the face... u always wan mi to shift out rite? fine... give mi 1-2 mths time.. i will shift out. once i shift out. i wont fucking care wat happens to u... be it u're dead... injured.. sick..... i wont care... u treat mi like shit... i will treat u worse than shit! becos of mum i stay in here... but now u wan to push ur limit further... i will show u wat i can do... ppl wan to say i bu siao i also dun care.. cos nobody noe how u have treated mi... u say u treat mi as dead wat rite? i treat u as dead as well... i wont even bother to attend ur fucking funeral. and i damn fucking hate myself becos of U! becos i am born becos of U! U dirtied my body... my mind... my soul... my everything! y didnt u all juz abort mi 24yrs ago?! maybe u will feel better... and i will surely feel alot more better! i rather not be born than to feel so insulted by U! i need somebody who i can really trust and lean on to.... but it's nv possible... haiz... how i wish later i go slp laioz.. den i wont wake up anymore... relieve mi from all this shit.. and u will be god damn happy also! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

ok 1 mth plus nv blog liaoz... ppl are complaining... well... nth much to blog also.... haiz.... mood is rather down now... cos juz now was having sms chat with a fren... fren tt i've nv se b4... suddenly "she" bcame the topic.... a person who i tot i have totally let go... but i was wrong.... once she flash across my mind.... everything she do... every smile of hers.... juz hurts mi so much... juz like be stab by a knife.... again and again... it's horrible.... y cant i juz be heartless enuff to her? juz the way i do to other ppl... y am i so weak? haiz... it sux... when can i be relieve from all these pain? haiz... ok i noe i'm crazy now... hopfully when i wake up it'll all be fine again.... somthing tt's hidden dep within mi had juz been triggered. it hurts...

2006-09-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

haiz... 1 week like tt nv blog le... dun have much to blog either... had been busy with work.. my work load is getting more and more heavy each day... i usual knock off time is 8p.m but now i knocking off later and later... from 8 to 9:30... and today is 10... tink sooner or later i might even need to stay in office overnite liaoz... had lots of stuff to rush... but it's ok lah... cos i also got nth much to do outside... kinda excited for tml.. cos tml i goin out to do outdoor sale... haha... hopefully can get so deal... den can earn abit of commisson on top of my basic pay.. juz now after work went to meet Carol with jason... they chat alot but i've been sitting alone at a corner dunno doin wat... feel very tired.. not in term of physically... but mentally i'm really very exhausted... and lots of things flash pass my mind... i really wonder... how long would i be able to be in such gd terms with Jason... esp after wat has happened between mi and steven they all... i juz hope things can go really smoothly between mi and jason as Buddy.. and not "brother" got home at aro 3a.m... then i knew tt my bro brought 2 frens back home to stay overnite... it wont be nice to ask all of them to squeeze 1 mattress.. so i decided to slp in the living room later... haiz.. feels so tired... guess i should get to sofa.. not bed... soon... haha... i look like pada le... the dark circle is getting darker and darker... so jialat.... =.="

2006-08-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

back to blogging... it's my 4th day working at moshi moshi... so far so gd... been handling lots of Mcards and stuff... ppl there are great.. enjoy chatting with them thou i always in the office busy with my cards... haha... also learnt alot of stuff from my manager (steven) went out to met some clients... learnt how to do banking for the company as well... haha... in less than 2 months time... most prob i'll be goin to thailand with him to do some project.... after tt he'll go to vietnam 1st... while i'll stay behind in thai to oversee the whole process... den i'll follow the last container and go to vietnam.... really excited over it.. haha... at least i had a BETTER life than those LOW LIFE CREATURES outside... who are still so happily saying lan jiao wei behind mi... dun tink i dunno lah.... ppl will tell mi wan... b4 u all say mi.. look at urself lah... always no money... no job... and do u all tink ppl in S.E like u all? no lor... ppl has been complaining abt u ppl to mi... even Uncle Peter also condemn u all liaoz.. wake up ur idea lah... how old already? 23yrs old liao lehz... still like small boy... like to complaint complaint... continue this way and i shall see how u die 1 day... bunch of day dreamers... wan to be racer... fucking go race and die lah... unrealistic goal... sianz... in the past i'll come up and fucking fuck u in ur face... now i wont.. not becos i scare of u all or wat... is becos i pity u all... beggers! enjoy wat u have now lah... and we shall see who will have the last luff.... sooner or later i gonna find those ppl from JP and get ur whole fucking team. juz wait and see...

2006-08-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

yoz! back to blogging... got 2 days nv blog liaoz.. cos nth much happen so didnt blog lor... lolx.. ok... where shall i start.... lest start from 11th aug ba... i was told tt i no need to work... so i went down to suntec to meet Daniel... along the way Rain saw mi and tap my shoulder.. was really shocked to see her.. after tt had a few games of wangan as usual... tt day not bad lah... at 1st lose a few games.. after tt i earn a total of 50+ stars... lol.... i was so happy.. cos tt means i'm a step nearer to hit my 1900 stars... lolx... after tt went to esplanade... saw rain again... but she looks rather unhappy den i ask her y... den did i noe tt got ppl misunderstood us... got ppl go tell her bf say she went to suntec to find mi... den her bf got so angry and punch his fist until got wounds... tt's stupid lah... i juz hate to get myself stuck in tt kind of situation... cos it sucks.. and i really didnt do anything lah... COCK! i really wonder wat kind of "buddies" have i got... so sickening and tiring... den ytd got work... was working at esplanade... got fireworks.. the whole place is flooded.. wan to walk also got problem... when the firework start not long.. i saw a mother carrying her boy... her boy was crying.. guess he was scare cos he still small and the sound might be too loud for him... haha.. so i let him sit with mi in the counter haha... cos he's such a cute boy... after tt saw my sec sch frens.... they're here to take boat ride also... so happy to see old frens sia... haha... after work juz go home le... haiz.... still feeling sick.. but gonna work later... sianz... i'm juz so tired of these few boring and lifeless ppl aro mi... are they really boring... or am i the wan who is boring? sighz.... i juz cant really click well anymore with them... i'm sick of their lifestyle....

2006-08-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

alright.... haha... finally finish changing my blogskin... haha.... nan de today can no need to work... and also i slept for quite a long time... wake up in the monrning at 8+ 9 like tt... den go back to slp again at 11.... :P gonna fei si liaoz.. haha... but i dun care! haha... well... some ppl may not like this skin... but do u tink i care? NO! I DUN! haha.. i juz change the skin acording to how i feel and let the skin say out wat i'm feeling inside... well... last nite work was ok... quite bz thou.... but i had lots of fun toking crap with my fren.... while working... haha...after tt at aro 11.30p.m i go wait for 174 to come back home... while the rest nv go home... y nv go home lehz? cos no money to take transport... and poor Leon had to suffer with them... ke lian.. tsk tsk... in the past i might stay with them... but not now anymore... cos they've given mi a real damn good stab right behind mi... i wont tok much with them either.. the most also on work stuff onli... it's so tiring... how i wish i could juz sleep the whole day thru.... haiz....

2006-08-09T13:48:00.000+08:00

ok... i noe... i've not blog for a long time... actually also nth much to blog... all i can say is.. i've not been happy all these while... today went to do abit of quiz to find out more of myself.... well... i tink the result are quite true... if u guys wanan do the quiz or see my result.. pls click the "exit" and scroll all the way down... hmmm guess tt's all i wanna say.. and oh ya... happy national day to all...

2006-07-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

haiz... back to blog again... today slept till 1:30p.m den wake up... haha... last nite went out for so called adventure tour again... it's kinda stupid i must say... 1st we went to OCH... Old Changi Hospital... on the way up 1 grp of malay joined us... went in to explore tt stupid hospital... as usual... i still see unclean things aro... the 1st wan was in the elevator... tt didnt scares mi much... but there was 1 tt almost freak the hell out of mi... we were walking down this corridor and juz onli at 1 spot.. got wind keep blowing.. somehow everybody onli look rite and left when they felt the wind... and mi... been the "suay" wan... i looked up.. and there it is.. staring rite down at mi... it was so damn scary... after tt... the grp decided to go and see the water tomb... but somehow along the way... i feel tt the tomb is so far away... and by tt time it was already 5+ in the morning le... si we decided to turn aro and head back home.... reach home at 6:21a.m knew my mum had wake up le... but she's in the washroom.. so i faster sneak back to my room and sleep... haha... has been having such kind of life... haiz... really got nth to do... juz feel abandon... somehow i noe... she wont find mi again... even if i sms her... she also wont reply mi... maybe now she really doesnt need mi anymore le ba... i got nth to say... i juz feel heart broken... SUX!

2006-07-15T09:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm... finally back to blog again.... getting more and more lazy to blog liaoz... haha... well... recently also nth much to blog ba... juz tt i'm geting rather unhappy working in sim lim now.... cos of too many backstabbers! haiz... suan le... shall not touch on something tt will make mi so unhappy early in the morning... ytd was quite a day for mi and my bro sia.. haha... juz the 2 of us... we went to marina to watch the show Re-cycle... it's quite a not bad show lah... kinda fantasy type.. but from the show i did learnt something... which i feel tt gals should really watch... it tok abt those aborted babies... at the end of the show it's quite a sad ending... but i feel tt it's worth the money... after the show we went to esplanade... from there we walk all the way down to boat quay... clarke quay den took bus to orchard cineleisure.... along the way my bro took quite abit of photos... 1 of them was the esplanade wan when he was abt to take i go li siao siao show my face in the pic... haha... den he kp mi alot juz for tt pic... =.=" haha...after tt at aro 11p.m reach home le... it's so unlike mi.. i dun usually go home so early on fri de... esp when i didnt work... haha... but later gonna go back work le... sianz... still down with flu... haiz... now on the lookout for another job as well... really feel tt i cant stay there anymore.... haiz... my life simply sux...

2006-07-02T17:47:00.000+08:00

well... too bored so here i come to blog again... suppose to go to work today... but was feeling too sick.. so i nv go... slept almost the whole day... now cant slp liaoz... den also nowhere to go... last nite spend the whole day at suntec... had abit of gaems with my frens... after tt at 11+ all of them went back... let mi alone... was walking down to esplanade... dunno y... of so many times i walk tt route.. tt is the 1st time i took so much attention to Pan pacific Hotel... juz like tt alot of things flash pass mi... thinking of all the times i used to had last time with my frens workign together.. it seems so sweet and yet so heart brokening... maybe tt's 1 of the reason y i like to hang aro cityhall area... i love the suntec... love the singapore river.. love the night scene of the sg 4 tallest building with their lights on... tinking back of the times when i work aro tt area... working at suntec... pan pac... esplanade... i have so much memories over there.. a place which i'll nv wan to 4get.. haiz... all these are the greatest memories i ever had in my life till now... every trip there who any1 i also wont 4get.. but i also noe... i cannot always live in memories... life still goes on.. i may still be lingering in the past.. but all the others wont... all of them had move on with their life... so muz i... i juz need to find some motivation ba... now then i realise y ppl say... it's easy to forgive... but hard to forget.... to mi... it juz take a second to forgive... but it takes forever to forget...

2006-06-30T03:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm... nth to blog actually... juz wanna say.... i feel SUX!!! juz hate everything aro mi.... SUXOR LIFE!!!! ARGH~!~!~!~!~!

2006-06-10T11:14:00.000+08:00

haha... it's been a really long time since i last blog in here... it had been 1mth plus already.... well.... quite alot of thigns happen during this 1 mth plus... see i can remember how much i'll blog it down ba... mainly i've been bz looking for job... found my 1st job after ORD at sakae sushi... thou it's F&B line... but i still cannot adapt to it.... cos the working time really suck up... i told them tt i can work whole day.. but everytime they onli let mi work 1/2 day shift.. den somemore is everyday go down work half day onli... my working timing is always 6-10.30p.m and t's the worse timing... cos after 10.30 have to help them to clean up the belt lah... top up soya sauce lah...refill chopsticks all these... in general... it's all the sai kang... den thru my max tune fren... he intro mi go to sim lim work... sell hp, ipod andsome computer accessories... the place is abit far from my house lah... but the working time is quite not bad... from 10.30a.m to 9p.m ppl there are nice... except 1 or 2 idiots are mean... the boss is nice... even thou the pay is lower i also dun mind... for 10 1/2hrs i earn $50... but still not bad le lah... den recently also had quite alot of conflicts goin on between mi and my frens... or rather ppl who i called fren... 10yrs of buddy... becos of $10... which i tt day really dun have enuff money to borrow him... he go arnd telling ppl in Jurong POint say tt i turn my face against him becos of $10... and let ppl all think tt i'm a bastard... not even in my dream i'll ever dreamt tt my own buddy would do something like this to mi... well... at least after this incident i finally see thru wat kind of person he is... take it as i'm blind for the past 10yrs ba.. sighz.. juz feel so tired of every single thing... it's becoming more boring in life den ever.... =(

2006-05-07T10:11:00.000+08:00

hmm..... it's been al ong long time since i last blog liaoz.... well... not say nth to blog lah... juz tt no mood to blog ba.... dunno y... keep getting into argument recently.. haiz... come to tink abt it also sian diaoz... well.. say not tok abt unhappy things...

last nite finally meet up with Chee Ren... he goin to NS le... so meet him up for a dinner... haha.... it's really been a long since we last had a meal together... even thou we live so near each other.. but having a chance to eat together seem to be such a hard thing... after tt we went down to suntec city.. haha as usual we played games together... it really does feels very gd to play with him again... muz admit i really lousy sia... my car can hardly outrun him... nice wan bro! LOLX! notl ong after tt things happen... my fren kana throw his temper arnd... juz becos 1 of his fren help him play against AI and lost... haiz... and it wont make much diff except for the title onli... and his fren trying to be nice... actually changed $10 and give him play... and yet he still show attitude... he play finish juz get up and walk away... leaving the $10 on the machine.... haiz... really there's no such a need to get so angry over a game lah... haiz... well.. nvm lah.. tt's the problem between them... they should be old enuff to settle it among themselves... haha... last nite chat with my cousin till 6 in the morning sia.. now he still sleeping like a baby... LOLX! now waiting for him to wake up den we go for breakfast liaoz... sianz... tml gonna start work lor... should be something gd ba.... SiGhZ!

2006-04-24T03:03:00.000+08:00

another weekend had passed...had been doin nth much in camp today... juz now chat with PL on the phone... somehow got inspired by her to go look for quotes... haha... orginally found a quote which i like alot... but due to the fact tt some1 in her list already use it... i've decided to stay up and look for another 1... tot now i got 1... it's still not as gd as the previous 1 i found... maybe wat she say is rite... when u've found the 1 u like... u'll feel tt the others are all not nice... haha... very true... somehow now i quite like quotes... but find too long... eyes also blur liaoz.. haha... and its also late le lah... need to slp soon...today while chatting with her while she was on the way to her grandma house... get to noe tt there's a erm.... i muz be civilise... let's call him Dicky (somebody who onli use his dickhead to tink) i dunno y lah... ppl like him... dun even take a look and see who he is... got a gal for urself liaoz... wan to look for "physical enjoyment" go find ur gal lah... dun come and find others juz becos ppl are more open or wat... it's such a shame to have ppl like u wasting oxygen in this world... somehow i juz dun tolerate such ppl... if ur small brother dick is itchy... and u cant control it... might as well cut it off lah... dun go arnd and ask gals for "physical enjoyment" for ppl like u... i look down on u... u bring shame to us human being... low life creature of this beautiful world... when she show mi the sms tt guy send.. i really feel so hot man.. not juz angry... my whole body temperature also rise... if 1 day... i ever lose my mind and start killing ppl... dun worry... such ppl will be my target... i gonna kill and slice up their brother dick... now come to tink abt it also feel angry... ARGH~! totally cannot be tolerate.... wat is the world becoming to... haiz... k lah..i admit lah... it's still mainly becos tt gal is some1 who is special to mi.. tt's y i'm so angry... better dun let mi see his dicky face... or else........ haiz.... hao lei... guess it's time to slp... it's already 3:15a.m and i'm still blogging... my headache is back again.. i juz cant control wat my head is tinking again... haiz... so far onli she noe wat headache i am refering to... and if onli she did see this post... haiz... gonna had a hard nite to slp le... ~>.<~

2006-04-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... long time nv blog again.... getting lazy to blog liaoz... haha... nth much totok abt also... onli yesterday... morning went down to Nee Soon camp for my dental... my appointment is 10:30... i reach at 10:10.... register liaoz... they ask mi to wait... den kns.. wait till 11am the it's my turn to do the dental check up... if like tt dun make us arrange appointment lah... -.-" i waited for almost 1 hr... and the check up took less than 5 mins.. juz lie down.. let the dentist see see tok tok abit... den he say i can go back liaoz... wtf? den nvm... come back camp at 11:30... went for lunch den go for my body check up at my camp's medical centre... as usual... took the height and weight... eye sight test and urine test... but my urine test come out to be abit abnormal... the doc tell mi say there's like an abormal amount of protein in my urine... and i did the test again... still the same result... and he wan mi to go back on monday to do the test again.. not knowing wat could be wrong... i went to ask my fren whose a medic down there... he tell mi say if there's an abnormal amount of protein in my urine... most prob it's kidney problem... how could it be?? i dun eat things tt's too salty or wat... y am i having suspected case of kidney problem... haiz... this problem been ligering in my head till now... i juz hope this monday test will come out as normal... if really got kidney problem... i dunno wat do i have to do... and wat lies ahead of this problem.... haiz...

2006-04-18T08:01:00.000+08:00

haiz.... all alone in the office again... listening to perfect 10... the music quite not bad... haha..... well well... quite a few days nv blog le... actually also dun have much to blog... feeling sick... haiz... recently juz keep on feeling like sleeping... guess i could really slp if there's nobody arnd... haha... yesterday after seeing doc... i really go where slp until where sia... on the chair... on the table... haha... during lunch time i open the bed in my office and continue slping... i also dunno y sia... i juz feel so slpy... maybe it's becos i'm sick ba.... sianz... really wonder how's today gonna be... most ppl isnt arnd... guess it'll be quite boring... haiz.... juz wake up onli... now feel like slping liaoz... ARGH~!

2006-04-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

haiz.... wat a day... spend the whole day in office... got tons of extras to finish b4 i can ord in peace... today went out to meet PL... i muz say i'm really happy to see her... took 169 with her to yishun... she bought dinner for her sis... after tt i went up to her house... and onli today den i realise tt her sis always waited for mi to leave liao den eat her meal de... i also dunno y... partly i also noe she dun like mi... haiz... maybe i'm really tt unwelcome to her ba...but i muz admit... it's my fault to step into their house in the 1st place... upon knowing tt her sis will onli eat when i'm off... i left immediately... at tt point... really got the feeling like kanna chase out... haha... but i cant still stay there when i noe ppl havent had their meal and is waiting for mi to leave then eat mah... actually today also got no plan of goin anywhere de... but unexpected stuff do happens wat... at that moment i feel so lost... dunno where to go... nobody to look for.... so i went down to sun plaza... as usual... spend some money played my fav game... i lost my very 1st game... haiz... wat a bad start... but after tt i did win back... and tt's another 30+ stars for her... even p till today i'm still trying to get 3999 stars for her... it's not easy i muz say... and i'm really sux in tt game... if 1 day i really get 3999 stars le... will she still be there to see it? got the feeling i gonna lose her anytime... i noe tt it's true tt we've really drifted apart... but i'm still trying to get things back to where it belong... sorry for disappointing u so many times... even when i'm blogging now i can feel the pain inside... tt's so painful tt no words can describe how it feels... all i can onli say is... i'm sorry... sorry for all the pain i brought upon u... but pls believe mi... some things really nv change at all b4 and after i went india... :(

2006-03-28T01:53:00.000+08:00

back in camp... feeling kinda lonely today... cos most of my frens had already ord... now got quite a few new guys whose here to take over my fren job... they're nice ppl i muz admit... but somehow i juz dun feel like toking too much with them... somehow i dunno y... i juz kinda miss jun liang... haha... still remember on the nite juz b4 i left my camp and head to the airport... jun liang is the 1 on duty... and we 2 stood by the corridor... and we're chatting away as he lights his cigarette... den he tell mi say.. "this gonna be my ord and last smoke here with u." haiz... now come to tink abt it... i juz feel so down... haha... dunno wat's wrong with mi...

today went to see MO as my hand got some infection... went to medical centre then realise tt the MO has already change... the new MO is quite nice... except tt he like to take his own sweet time alot... went in when he called mi... show him my hand... he ask mi... itchy anot? i say no... but instead it feels painful... den he was like o.O? haha.... den his final conclusion is.... "it's a skin infection... a kind of skin infection." den i was like -_-" i also noe it's skin infection... ah bo i see u for wat? then he say he gonna give mi some cream to apply and see how it works.... so wat does tt mean? meaning u dunno wat kind of infection is this and u are asking mi to try medicine for u? but bo bian lah... i need to put a stop to this infection b4 it totally eat up my whole hand... den at the same time today keep goin to toilet... dunno wat's wrong... didnt eat anything wrong or wat... but my stomach juz keep feeling so uneasy... haiz... wat's wrong wat's wrong...

juz now was having some chat with the almighty "paper knows" haha.... as usual... i gave her the daily dosage of suanning... and find out wat actually made her come back to yg... it's thru this conversation den i realise how blur she can be... 1 story got alot of sub line de... and it's all wrong somemore... until at last then she remember how come she will come back to our yg... -.-" basket... chat with her till 11plus... until she buay ta han den go slp liaoz... haha... it was nice chatting with u huh "paper knows" free muz come in more often to let mi further upgrade my power of suanning... haha... k lah... kinda nth to do le... and it's very late now... need to wake up later at 6.10a.m and now it's already 2.10a.m... onli have 4 hrs to slp... haiz... go sleep lor... -.-ZZZzzz...

2006-03-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

juz come back from my youth grp... feels gd to be back to my youth grp again... had abit of outdoor activity juz now... after tt had lunch at westmall... and saw 1 of youth grp member whom i super long nv see liaoz... since ppl so long nv come den i muz on my "suaning" power and blast at tt person... whose name is "paper knows" haha :P anyway tt person also wont come to my blog so it's ok to post tt great name i've given to tt person... hohoho... after tt come home to rest awhile as my leg still hurts... receive a sms from somebody... well... juz dunno y... recently sms always get into argument wan... then nvm... 1st time lor... for the very 1st time i got ppl doubting my ability in com fixing lor... i really believe i can fix the com lah...but everytime i fix it.... somehow the user of the com dunno how to maintain lah... use until got pop up lah... got adware lah... which is quite common nowadays... ppl who always use net will noe abt it... den nvm lah... everytime i can i try to fix... if really too jialat i'll format for them... for free somemore hor... but wat did i get? doubting in my ability... for them easy lah... juz a simple thankz... den go find some1 else to fix the com... but there's something they dunno... tt's is... i feel insulted... i can take anything... but i cannot take it when i'm insulted... but suan le... who wil realise how it feels? feel like scolding her juz now... really feel like scolding her.... but suan le... for wat? no point make ppl's day worse when ppl already so bu shuang mi liaoz.... wat i do juz seem to be so so wrong... haiz... juz feel so damn sux up now... wat a entry today... my last weekend is burnt juz like this... it's not gd to be angry when u r sick u noe? but suan le... juz like wat my encik once say to us... if ppl need ur help... they'll come looking for u wan... dun need to look for them... guess it's true huh... haiz... mood all gone into drain juz like this... haiz... anybody free later? jio mi go out lehz... haiz.... who also can lah.... be it guys or gals.... gay or lesbian... alien also can lah... juz jio mi go out... fellow mi to the place when i always go when i feel down.... haiz.... :'(

2006-03-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

back to sg le!!! haha.... it's really feels so gd to be back in sg... the air... the ppl... everything in sg feel SO much more better than in india... haha... touch down at changi yesterday at 8:15a.m when the plane is abt the land... those malay guys got so excited that they keep on cheering... haha... well... i can truly understand how it feels lah... everybody has been waiting for the day to go back home since we've reached india... as for mi... of cos i do feel happy lah... but at the same time... i'm actually down with fever... haiz... tink not used to the weather in sg liao lah... haha... as for today... still tinking wat should i do... hmmm... ppl who noe mi well enuff will noe tt i'm wont stay at home wan... somemore later today my whole family is goin out to attend wedding dinner lah... and i'm stuck at home all alone... i wont wan tt man... haiz... guess i gonna find somebody to go out with mi... or i'll go out alone liaoz... Sheesh~

2006-03-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

haiz... so long nv blog le.. this entry is a rather special wan... cos i'm blogging over here in india... INDIA man!!!! damn jialat country.... since the day i come here... have been nose bleeding till now.... haiz... training has all end liaoz.... my job is easy lah...send food onli mah.... as for wat has happen here... i wont say le... it's not very gd anyway... over here see alot of stuff... like wolves.... peacock... even leopard.... haha.... but as usual.. mosquitoes are juz tt so irritating... they juz keep bugging u by the ear.... and wont sting u.... haha... now everyone is bz packing their bags.... as for mi... i didnt start packing yet... tink will pack tml.... really cant wait to go back to sg man.... i miss everythign over there.... haha... juz noe tt my bro got a new hp thru msn... he happy like bird sia... juz a new phone mah.... hao lian for wat? haha... i noe he wan to share mp3 with mi lah... hopefully he got something nice in there for mi.... hehe... cos i always noe i got better song than he do.... hohoho..... :P k lah... shall blog until here... the next entry shall be done in sg... ^^ SG I'M COMING BACK!!! ^-^V

2006-02-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

haiz... it's nite time le... how time flies... today is my last day in sg... later at 0300 which is 3a.m i gonna leave my camp and go to changi airport le... gonna go india liaoz.... frankly speaking... i feel so damn sian abt it... cos i'm not even involve in this de lah... juz becos of 1 fellow long term mc... now i have to take over him and his job over ther... haiz... the other reason y i'm so sian is becos the CAPTAIN from my bty keep aiming mi... he is there also lah... but he'll onli come next week... which means after this week i still gonna die de... haiz... den have to ta han him there for 4 weeks... he for no reason say tt my attitude is very bad when i didnt even do anything to offend him lah... then the next reason y i'm so sian is becos i gonna miss the ppl here... haiz... no more ppl to chat on phone with mi at nite... nobody to sms rubbish... haiz... cos everything i use there will be more expensive... cos of overseas charges mah... haiz... but anyway... i gonna buy the india prepaid sim card to put into my hp... heard tt it's cheaper to use their prepaid sim card then use our own wan... call back sg is onli charge at 9 rupee per min.... as for sms is arnd sg 40cent onli... not bad hor... haha... tink tonite cant sleep le lah... ah bo later cannot wake up by 3... haiz..... sianz....

2006-02-17T19:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm... another boring day spent in the camp... today got some ppl from the outside came to our camp and let us play a stupid game called FQ... wat is the meaning of this FQ i also 4get liao lah... it's kinda like monopoly like tt... juz tt this game u need to noe how to earn money like do investment lah.... get ur recurrent charges... quite fun lah... still can have baby wan sia... haha... but u dun see this board game stupid stupid wan... 1 set of it cost $300 sia... it's created by someone called Peter Tan... he even got books toking abt how to change ur life in 5 days... i read abit of it... find it not bad lah... but as i read on then i realised tt i actually havent been using my brain alot.. no wonder it's getting rusty lah... heard tt this book "change your life in 5 days" outside market sell $20-30 sia... such a ex book and it's not thick at all lah... if u guys ever see this book at the bookstore.... can take a look at it.. u might like it... hmmm k lah... nth much to blog liaoz... flying off this sunday at 7:15 sia... abt 0445 have to reach airport... haiz...

2006-02-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

another day has passed... today spend half the day at kranji camp doin my dental appointment b4 i go india for my overseas training... feeling so tired rite now... haiz... didnt manage to fix the laptop properly and now its giving it's owner alot of problem... i feel so fed up and disappointed in myself... juz a laptop also cannot do properly.... haiz... den now cos the owner so much trouble... haiz...

somehow today all the songs i choose to listen are so damn sad... dunno y... it juz somehow bring out the sadness tt set deep down inside mi... juz tell somebody on the comeabout of the name snowscar.. after telling the comeabout of it... i juz feel more sad.... haiz... sad life...

2006-02-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

happy valentine day! 14th feb is here once again.... to mi it's juz another day in camp... nth special... haha... no gf wat... celebrate wat valentine day? haha... but to those who got bf or gf... today is ur day man! go on out and enjoy the day... ppl like mi cannot go out... go out will cry wan sia... ppl all 1 pair 1 pair de... then i will look like 1 lonely old man... haha... where will u guys bring ur gf on such a day ne?? haha... some not so romantic maybe will juz bring their gf out for a simple dinner... then maybe after tt go for a movie... then will call it a day liaoz... haha... but to some gals tt may be consider gd enuff liao lor... haha... for those who got higher standard wan wat will they do lehz? hmmmm.... maybe same lah.. go for dinner at some restuarant with great atmosphere... dim lighting... give ur gf roses... buy her something which u noe she had been eyeing for a long long time... after tt i feel tt taking a walk down the park or better still by the beach ( cos i like beach huh... hehe...) enjoy the wind... look at the sky... holding ur gf by the hand... sit down somewhere cooling hold her close to u... and give her a gd light kiss on the forehead... wah!!! wat am i tinking man... haha... tink i tink too much liao huh... haha... bo bian lah... no gf is like tt de mah... but i tink if a gal can get all those stuff tt i mention above... she should be melted sia... LOLX! maybe not? no guarantee huh... if try liao fail i will not be held responsible huh... kekeke... for mi i gonna stay in camp for this valentine day ba... got nowhere to go... nobody to meet... everybody is busy meeting up with their gf and bf... haiz... envy... haha... but nvm lah... life still goes on... no point sighing over it... juz look at the brighter side ba... i'm not alone in camp... there's so many other ppl who have to stay in here with mi... but mostly got gf wan lah... no doubt they still do look sad... but i cant look sad wat... wat's there to sad abt? haha... tt's life man.....

2006-02-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

today is the so called "total defence day"... had a so called "celebration" at the officer mess... had some presentation... as usual... they talk abt the 5 defences tt make up the total defence... no need mi to say lah hor.. all of u should noe... then we have a debate on topics like should we have free press in sg and etc lah... at the end of the debate... our C.O (Commanding Officer) gave us a speech... and he said something which i really agree alot...

do we really have free press in sg? not really ba... yes its true tt press media always got lots of so called "rubbish" to report... but do u noe tt they can actually report all this as long as they have the facts to back up wat they report? haha... i was shock to hear tt too cos i always tot media always anyhow report onli.. no need check also can accuse u liaoz... but later in the speech my C.O say tt there is something muz more powerful than the press media... and wat is it? it's us... the bloggers... our press media like strait times watever they publish will onli be seen and read by readers in sg... as a blogger... watever u type and publish it wont be read by ppl in sg onli... it's published to the whole wide world... and so u can imagine how big the diff is compare to the newspaper tt we read every single day... tt's y we can see cases like bloggers been charge lah and blah blah blah... it's becos of this point... thou blog is ur own private free space... but watch out... there are still ppl who is out to see wat u type and report u as long as they see wat u blog and they dun agree with it... i remember once seeing somebody's blog toking abt this topic regarding bloggers been charge for writing sensitive topics in their blog... it's not say u cannot say or blog down wat u tink... it's juz tt... u got to becareful... u wanna blog abt something sensitive and dun wanna get urself into trouble... use the correct words... choose ur words correctly... but still.... if someone is out to get u for tt... u still can hardly write away wan lah... juz fellow bloggers... juz becareful the next time u start blogging abt something real sensitive... things like... religion... politics... company stuff... its all the killer issuse tt can get u charge in court without knowing..

2006-02-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... time to blog again... haha... i'm such a irregular blogger... =P well... actually today also nth much to blog lah... only feel tt some ppl huh... their skin really damn super thick sia... cos i got a team at suntec lah... it's for the Wangan Midnight Max Tune de lah... got team surely got member rite? den there's this idiot huh... i noe him de lah.. but he was nv officially in the team... or should i say we nv even consider abt bringing him into the team lah... but somehow our technician who i tink is too kind or silly? help him duplicated a team car card and give him... and now tt idiot is goin arnd using our team car and tell ppl say he is from W.DEV! it's such a disgrace lah... ppl like him who onli noe how to bully the weak and cannot afford to lose wan goin arnd tell ppl say he is from our team... and so i've asked my guys to find him out and take tt card back... in order to stop him from further ruining my team reputation... den juz now went to suntec for a few games... surprisingly the guy sitting beside mi who is also my opponent actually asked mi am i tt "snow" in the forum... haha.... shock sia... didnt expect ppl to actually noe mi... kekeke...

after tt PL meet mi up at suntec... went back to yishun together as i have some stuff to settle... i saw this old granny and grandpa selling tissue... everytime pass by them u'll see it's either the granny is selling and the grandpa is resting... PL even told mi tt they have to share a packet of rice for a meal... haiz... then today as usual i see them again... they're actually packing up their stuff preparing to go home le... and dunno wat got into mi... i juz walk up to the old granny and passed her $5... haha... she wanted to give mi tissue... i say no need cos i actually also have no place to keep it. hen she keep saying thank u... seeing the smile on her face i feel so happy... thou $5 is nth lah... but to them it must mean alot liaoz... and it somehow juz brighten up my whole day... even till now i still feel so happy... haha... k lah... my fren is finally back to take over his duty liaoz... he even bought in some food for mi... kekeke.... it does pay to be nice huh? (somehow lah)=P go makan lor! byez!

2006-02-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

oh cool!!! haha.... still remember last time i say the camp's stupid network dun allow us to do blogging in camp... haha... now i was in OPS room using the com... and i accidentally found this address... http://www.blogger.com/home and it can by pass the stupid thing tt's barring us from blogging... haha... guys u all can try it at ur camp also too? hehe... well... this few days have been a rather busy day... yes... and i mean really BUSY!

cos now our battalion is gonna have this stupid thing called FATEP... which is commonly known as ATEC lah... thou i need not go outfield... but i got a super ultimate sai gang to do... mi and my signal warrant the 2 of us have to draw mount and set up all the signal stuff for the whole battalion... thou it's really super tiring and always get dedyhrated but it's ok lah... mi and my signal warrant had lot's of crappy times together... cursing and swearing at ppl we totally dun like... luff abt the stupid things we do... so actually it's quite enjoyable... ^^ after tt at nite will be much more quieter liao... as he has gone back home and i have to stay in camp (sad to say) but at least i still have my PS2 this com and the phone which i can chat on... haha... today is equally as busy as yesterday... adn tml we still have lots to do... haiz... i'm feeling kinda tired and giddy after all this job... @_@ guess i gonna go up and rest for the day soon... since nobody call mi... haha... tml they all gonna go outfield for 3days 2 nites... haha... the whole place will be super quiet liaoz... heh heh... k lah... blog again next time.... *YaWnZ*

2006-02-05T02:42:00.000+08:00

haiz... such a long time nv blog le... haha.... time to blog some feeling inside mi now... haha... yea... gonna be a sad entry again... have u ppl ever got a cut on urself and see the blood there dripping away? how does it feel? pain? hurt? of cos it does rite? well... it's been a long time since i last ask myself how do i really feel.... today.... i juz pop myself this question... and the answer from my heart is... it's dripping blood... it's still dripping.. how painful? how burt it is? very i'll say... it's extremely pain... wat does love really means? to give a person everything tt u've got and ask for nth in return but juz the love of tt person? but not everytime tt's the case... u may tot tt if u give it ur everything... things may bloom.. but sorry... NO! it doesn't... even with ur everything... things still get bounce back to u.... rite into ur very face hard and painful sending u down to the floor... but nvm... u get urself back up again... try again... yea.. u tot u are so tough.. can try again.... but once again it juz bounce back to u and hit u in the very damn face again... u feel fed up... y does it keep bouncing back to u... u simply dun understand... y is this happening now... u feel so puzzled and angry cos u dun even have a clue y is it goin so wrong... well.... i'm not trying to say anything or wat lah... it's juz a kind of feeling tt i've got at the very moment when i juz ask my heart how is he goin all these while.. and somemore i blog or no blog also no diff wan mah... no ppl will see this... haha...

2006-01-22T07:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey!!! wah!!!! i super duper long nv update my blog liao sia... haha... bo bian lah.... camp's net cannot blog mah... somemore i was stuck inside for so damn long lah... really got a taste of how it feels like to do so much duties in a row... haha... for the 1st 7 days... i dunno y lah...i juz sort of cannot control my temper... got fed up super easily... tink it's becos of the stress ba.. i will start scolding ppl very easily... and i scolded almost everybody... yea man... everybody... even my officer also cannot siam... i even screwed my own officer... haha... but gd thing lah... he understand tt i was under too much stress.... so he also dun really mind lah... hehe... i was lucky huh... :P k lah.... during my these 2 weeks of non stop duty.... nth much actually happened lah... except tt... half way thru the duty i fall sick... ya... even now i also sick lah.. 1 side blog 1 side blogging away lah... irritating... >=( well... last nite i spend my nite outside again... went down to PL house to pass her the Shutter vcd which she wanted to watch so much.... tot she wanna borrow how long sia... last nite bring over.. she on the spot watch then return to mi liaoz.... -.-" after tt meet up with Dai Ming Kelvin to go down to toa payoh to play lan again... last nite was rather lame... we played cs 1st... then we played maple.. somehow last nite connection was rather sucky... we keep getting lag in the map... haha... but nvm lah... i did quite a few upgrade for my character... hohoho.... then at 6 we left toa payoh to come back to batok liaoz... haiz.... wanted to sleep sia... but well... my cousin came yesterday... so he's now actually sleeping on my bed lah... bo bian lor.... wait for him to wake up le then go sleep ba.... haiz... today my Wangan Devil's team members wan mi to go down to suntec leh..... should i go anot... haiz.... wonder wonder wonder.... tired... I WAN TO SLEEP!!! *ROAR*

2006-01-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

haiz... finally here i am blogging again le... i noe it's been a long time since i last blogged... well... becos my blogskin is spoilt... and it juz totally killed off all my mood for blogging... well today... i've spend some tiome looking for a new skin le... thou it may not be nice lah.. as long as i like can le mah... haha... :P well... recently nth much happen to mi too... juz tt this coming 19th feb i'm goin to india for another stupid overseas training le... go india somemore.... wah lau ehh.... gonna go there eat prata all the way mehz?? siao liao lah... how can ta han?? goin for 5 weeks lehz.... suxor.... well.. i dun have a choice do i? juz last fri i did something really powerful... i go do painting sia! wah lau ehh.... ever see ppl do painting till 3+ in the morning? haha... i also 1st time try.... it's quite fun thou... but k lah.. i muz admit my painting skill sux lah.... cant even paint a room properly... then i still can sleep in the room so filled with the paint's aroma sia.... guess i've breathe in too much paint de smell ba... till now my lungs still feel like it's burning... and my nose hurts terribly... or maybe it's becos i didnt sleep enuff and drink too little water? i also dunno lah.... but it's a really gd exp i've not had for a long long time le... dunno will i ever be able to paint tt room again? or paint for tt person again? haiz... i dunno.... =/

2005-12-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm... finally back home le... this few weeks kind busy... haha... busy with wat? play my midnight maximun tune... well.. finally... after so long... i getting really near to my final goal le... the goal of achieving 999 stars.... haha... so far now i got 910 le... i onli have 89 more to go.. haha... k lah... nth to hao lian abt de lah... it's juz a game onli wat... to most ppl is like this lah... but to mi... 999 stars is really a long way.. after i got this 999th stars... i gonna seal up my kazer le... it got too much enemies outside... dunno y... ppl juz hate my car... haiz... well enuff of game... haha.... today had a very interesting chat with 1 of my campmate... we were chatting abt the gals in sg... haha... k lah i noe lah.. we guys can be damn "ba gong" also.. haha... then he say... he's not gonna find a gf at all.. he wanna wait till he's successful liao... then gals will automatically flock to him... i told him... well.. it's quite true in sg... if u r successful... u dun have to worry abt gals.. cos gals will juz flock to u and stick to u like ultra super glue... haha... but after tt i ask him.... have u ever tink abt this point... these glas who flock to u is becos they really like u? or becos they like the shiny card with a word called VISA or those colourful paper with Yusof Ishak face on it? then he like -.-" sian diaoz... haha... then he ask mi.... then wat abt mi? i told him... well.... if i would choose... of cos i'll prefer a gal who's with mi when i have nothing.... totally zero till the day i'm successful.... these type of gals are the gals tt u can be with... dunno y lah.. no offense... i juz feel tt gals who will come to u becos u r damn filthy rich.... they're juz vain.... 1 day if u juz went broke overnight.... then she'll juz leave u... not even saying goodbye.... then wat's the use? it's like using money to keep a women by ur side... haha... but anyway.. this is juz my point of view onli lah.... not everybody will agreed on my points de.. haha... cos as usual lah hor.. my view is always diff from others... haha... maybe nowadays life is like ttba... got money got status... u got women.... no money no status... dog see u also spit salivia.... haha.... but for mi i also dun really care lah.... cos i noe where i am heading to... wat i'll be doin in future... i may still be in sg.. i may not be in sg.... but anyway... it's my path ba... now see alot of my frens getting married... engage... some even got children le.. haha... juz fee tt... they're really fast man.... haha... it's either they're fast or i'm slow ba... haha... but nvm... i like it slow and steady... juz let nature take it course lor... if it's bound to come... it'll come de... no point forcing... tt's y thru all this i learn... i've learn to let things come and go... certain things juz have to go... thou certain things hurts alot when u noe u're losing it.... but u still have to let it go.. cos u noe u can nv hold it back... the more u tried to hold it back.. the faster u'll lose it... and tt's true... cos i've gone thru such feeling... it's nv gd to have such feeling.. but learn... every man learn thru falling... let it fall with a loud THUD! and when u get up... u'll learn... haha.... my blog is becoming more like a space for mi to write wat i have inside my this puny bird brain... to most ppl all these are juz nonsense ba... got no value de... haha.... k lah... tink i gtg liaoz.... haiz... jay's Ai wo bei Zhuo juz make my mood so damn down... haiz..... next week is my range le... dunno can get marksman anot... i totally got no faith already.... too much... too much has happen... i'm so tired... if tonite i like this sleep le and nv wake up again... how would ppl arnd mi feel? happy or sad? haha.... toking nonsense agai... haha... *SiGhZ*

2005-12-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm it's been some time since i last blog le ba... well... today actually also got nth much to blog also... too lazy to blog down wat happen in the week... juz hang up the phone not long ago.... really wonder... wat do ppl see mi in their eyes? someone who they'll onli find when they feel like it? wat position do i hold in everybody's eyes? let mi tell u guy wat i feel ba... deep down in my heart... i feel tt ppl are onli looking for mi when they feel like it... when they dun feel like it.. i dun even exist in their head... when somebody or something is unfair to them... they'll find mi... yea and i listen... i share their problem... i do have my own problems ar... y didnt anybody ever ask mi? "hey... dun u have problems too?" if some1 ever do ask tt.... i can give tt person a 3days 3nite story liao... haha... but anyway... suan liaoz... cos i'm used to it liaoz... hasn't been feeling well recently... keep falling sick... somemore not juz 1 sickness... it comes in package wan... a few sickness together... haiz... bad yr... bad mths.... everything juz seem to be so utterly wrong.. wonder how long can i still take all this bullshit.... i'm goin doen soon man... soon...

2005-11-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.
Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.
Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

hehe... saw this thing from junky da jie's blog.. so i decided to give it a try as well... haha... quite true actually also... i like tt phrase... superhuman brain... haha... where got super? haha... well.. spent the whole day at home sia... morning was rotting in front of my com all the way... after tt at noon 12 like tt went to sleep... wake up at arnd 3p.m then get up to bath... den make my way to NUH for my appointment liaoz... NUH kinda f*ck up lah... give mi appointment time 4.20p.m in the end i have to wait till 5.30p.m then my turn... wtf?! see the doc... he ask mi wanna go for op anot... but he also say.. it's not very gd lah.. cos it may not heal also... after tt he ask mi to go outside and get something called air-cast... to support my ankle... so i went over to the store and check... 1 stupid piece of plastic with a few stripe cost mi $90 sia! sian... so i choose not buy... too ex le lah... i wear ankle support... after tt went to 7-eleven to get a drink and took 197 to jurong east... then from jurong east walk back home... along the way got so much memories sia... tinking of the gd old days when mi and matthew and qiwei always go out play basketball... the times when i every sat will walk from my house to jurong east to Shuqun sec for my CDAC tuition.. feel tt time really flies.. everything juz pass so fast... when u look back... its no longer there... but juz pieces of memories left in our head... something which can be lost anything... or even be brought into the grave with us when we all die... came back... had my dinner then sit down here and rot again... later goin back to camp le...dunno y.. keep feeling so tired... like those goin to die de ppl like tt... always feel tired and sleepy.. sacrli i also dying liaoz... haha....

2005-11-27T11:15:00.000+08:00

back to blog le... ytd went out for almost the whole day sia... went to JP to play my 2 weeks nv touched Wangan Midnight Maximum Tune.... after tt went down to Orchard to meet Bear... had our lunch at orchard.... then walk down to P.S... play max tune again... haha... at 7p.m went down to meet up with my big family of sgWG... had a nite of fun and tok cock session... haha... after tt went down to parklane to play snooker... haha.. for the 1st time i learn to play snooker mah... play until abit damn stupid lah... ppl luff at mi luff until sit on floor and cry.... guess i'm a really bad player.... :/ after tt we all went back home le.... initially today is still quite ok de... except for the normal sian i have everyday lah.. but now thigns juz go so damn wrong... is it true tt ppl will onli learn how to treasure when the stuff or thing is no longer there? maybe ba... ppl juz dun appreciate the one they have arnd them.... wait till it's gone.. they start to regret.... becos it's always too late le... certain things.... once it's gone... it'll be gone forever.... it's be buried deep down in the heart... which even tt person also cannot retrieve it back anymore... a loner life is always better mah... a man with no feeling... without feeling... will be better mah? dun feel sad... happy... heart broken or watsoever.... if i can ever do tt... become a man with no feeling... it'll be the best liao rite? cos nobody can hurt mi or upset mi... feeling so tired and exhausted again... man... life is meaningless....

2005-11-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

well.... i'm back from aussie le.... haiz.... actually in my head i got tons and tons of things to blog... but dunno y.... i juz keep on feeling so restless.... i feel so tired... even thou i slept alot.... hmmm.. k lah.. write abit bout my feeling wallaby ba... over there.... it's damn jialat.... alot of sand and dust... juz like waste land... and our campsite is like slum.... SLUM lehz.... sianz... when i free i'll post all the pics i taken over there in aussie... erm.... during this training.... i spend almost every second all by myself.... yea man... all by myself... i also dunno y lah... juz dun feel like mixing arnd with my guys... i feel so sian abt them... most of the times... esp at nite... i'll sit at somewhere in the campsite... looking up into the sky... oh ya... the sky there is damn clear.... can see lots and lots of star.... even shooting stars is common there.... ok back to wat i wanna blog.... then i'll start to tink alot of stuff.... of cos it's all abt myself wan lah... tink abt the stuff i've been doing... clear off my mind... telling myself wat i should do and wat i shouldn't do... most of the times i dunno y i juz feel sad... thou i feel lonely.... but i juz dun wan to mix with the others... somehow during these 2 weeks... i seem to rediscover the old mi... which i have long lost it a few yrs ago... i started to pick up thel ife of been alone again... meaning... i gonna be more anti-social le.... haha.... well... but tt's the real mi yrs back lah... izzit gd or izzit bad... i also dunno.... and i also dunno how lah... i come up with a quote for myself... "ppl comes and ppl goes... ppl tried and ppl failed... if there's some1 who can pass... dun let go and hold it tight..." haha... tink it's all rubbish to u ppl ba... but it actually reflect alot to mi lah... certain things... wat u have may not be the wan u wan.... but when u found something else better than the wan u have... y do u still hold back? hmmm.... this is another thing i'm still trying to figure out.... hopefully 1 day i will figure it out myself ba... haha... but muz see when will i self enlighten lah... keke... k lah.... juz blog abit onli... i feel so tired and sleepy le...
when i've uploaded those pic into my photoalbum... i'll post it here then u ppl can have a look of it over there.... k lah guys... take care all man... the weather is cold in sg recently... dun get a cold wor... ;P

2005-11-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

2005-11-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm... juz reach my cousin house again... haha... let see wat i have done recently... juz went to my YG chalet at changi.... i wont say it's fun nor boring... neutral ba.. kinda bz lor.... got stuff to do also mah... really bz till no time for myself lor... and somemore i'm sick lehz.... keep feeling very tired... and even got misunderstood for not wanting to call ppl... haiz... i'm terribly sorry.... 1st i'm really bz.... 2nd... i'm sick.... and lastly... my card no money le... haiz.. but ppl dun wanna listen to my explaination... k i noe.. it's still my fault afterall... sometimes i juz wish ppl can be more understanding to mi... let mi explain y becos u sentence mi to death... haiz.. no pt toking abt it... cos i doubt tt person will read this blog too... now the time is 2:32a.m monday le... another 2 more days i'm leaving for aussie le.... juz wish all of u here will take care man.... thou i really feel very uneas bout my this trip to aussie... but i noe i still have to go... as for her... if u r reading this.... pls do take care... hope ur relationship with him is still ok ba... take care... i may not be able to nag at u tt much anymore le....

btw... i've changed my blog song le... give mi some comment on it k? and photos of my fren's sn and some chalet pic has been uploaded too...

2005-11-04T00:56:00.001+08:00

haiz... juz got back from outside... currently at my cousin's house... it's being such a long time since i last blog... how time flies... this coming wed i'm flying of to Australia for my EX WALLABY liaoz... tt stupid Jun Liang still called mi up over from there juz o ask mi to bring some cigarette for him... basket... -.-" ok lah... enough of tt... today went to my sec sch classmate house to attend his son's 1 mth celebration... haha... his son really look like him sia... quite a cute little fellow... and guess wat... my fren's wife dream for his son is to be a Commando Officer... haha... say dun be like my fren... being a specialist onli... btw.. for those who dunno... specialist is SGT in the army lah... haha... reall this world is super damn small lah... expect it to be a happy gathering... end up i saw my ex's cousin... frankly... her appearance juz killed all my happiness for today... and i hate ppl giving mi those fuck up hostile look lah... somemore still dare to ask my fren's wife who are we... wah lao eh.... u can come we cannot come izzit? wat make u so fucking special... kns... after tt celebration i went down to panjang plaza with matthew and a few frens... listen to some saving plan talk... so i tot... after i come back from aussie... i gonna start a saving plan too... interest rate not bad lah... 3% per year... and somemore every year can get $750 out in case i need money... hehe.. after tt went down to timah's Pool Factor to play pool... k lah.. i sucks on pool lah... onli win 1 game... lost 3.... :/ after tt went to the coffeeshop at timah for some food... then took cab to my cousin's house... and got a rather shocking phone call by PL... haiz... i also not sure lah... sems like her bf wanna break with her liaoz... haiz... juz come back from brunei onli wan to do this to his own gf... wake up man... treasure wat u have lah... haiz... tml still need to o back camp to serve my last duty b4 i go aussie... dunno y... i feeling kinda messy up in my head... juz hope she's alright... :/ k lah... it's late... guess i gonna go sleep once my hair is dry... need to get to camp by 7 tml.. sian......

2005-10-28T08:55:00.000+08:00

2005-10-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm... here i am to blog again le... haha... reaslise tt i nowadays really cant blog le... cos the stupid camp internet bar blogspot... so i cant blog in camp... haiz.... ok lah... for this week... nth much goin on also... sunday do guard... a rather relax wan... cos tt day got rain... haha.... so we juz stay in the guard house and sleep all the way... then at nite... i was so touched man.... for the 1st time.... somebody buy food for mi to eat and send it to my camp's main gate somemore... haha.... but there's not onli my food lah... it also have Jun Liang's share... and here i would really like to thankz tt person... thankz u Pei Ling... ^^ thou tt day alot of ppl say i mei you liang xin... but really... i appreciate it alot for sending the food over.... ^^ and also my VITASOY! haha.... k i noe i'm crazy... after tt guard.. i got nth much on... except on weekdays nite off.. did went to town area... went to orchard... then from orchard walk all the way down to esplanade... and took 2 pic over there... can check out my photo album.. it's taken with my hp de wor... haha.... (hao lian) then also did went to hard rock cafe tt building there to play pool with Jun Liang and Kennerd... but i didnt really play lah... cos 1stly i dunno how to play... and somemore PL is with us... gals will get damn bored with such activities de... and plus she also not feeling well... then i tink really nth to write liaoz.. this coming week most prob i wont blog... cos i will be serving confinement in camp.. haiz... sian... on the 3rd nov... i gonna attend my sec sch classmate's son 1 mth anniversary... cant wait to see the baby and play with him sia... haha... muz be a damn cute baby... ^^ after tt on the 9th i'm flying off le.... anybody here will miss mi?? haha.... i will there is....

2005-10-15T07:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... got 1 whole week nv blog le... how time flies... juz liek tt 1 week is gone le... for the past 1 week i've been attending course at sungei gedong camp... we're having a driving course... it's the BV206... it's not any ordinary vehicle... it's a track vehicle.. which can travel very well in terrain... not bad la the course... thou it's tiring... shall not touch on wat i did there lah... mainly sleep and tok cock... drive alittle bit onli... cos it's too easy... haha... then on thurs is the test... and well... all of us so far has pass already... left 1 section not done onli.. then we can get our lic liaoz... haha...

hmmm.... today had abit arguement with somebody... shall not name who... at tt moment... i really feel so damn down... yea man... down to the extreme... it's like my whole world has juz darken down again... so dark till i cannot even sense where am i... and tt feeling sux... imgaine u've done so much juz for tt some1... and 1 day tt person say... he/she onli takes u for granted... how would u feel? others i dunno... for mi... upon hearing tt... my heart juz shattered in thousand and millions of pieces... yea... juz like a sand castle u build so long... and it's been kick down juz like tt... tt kind of feeling... haiz... i also dunno wat to say... juz feel tt even at this very moment while i'm blogging... i still do feel the pain... y does such things always fall on mi? haiz... life is so meaningless... who or wat can make it meaningful for mi? i really dunno... i'm all lost and broken...

2005-10-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

haiz.... it's firday again... 4 days nv blog le... i didnt even blog on my b'day... haha... cos my camp cannot access to blogger lah... then at nite by the time i reachh ome... my dad has already happily keep the modem le... so i still cannot blog... ok lah... this yr's b'day once again is burnt in camp again... -.-" sian rite? bo bian... got to work... last yr burnt at Pasir Lebar Camp due to Wargame Ex... this yr is becos got lots of stuff to do... but at nite i did book out lah... book out meet up with a few of my frens... they bought mi a small piece of Black Forest cake for mi... thankz guys... then we sat at the Kopi Roti of westmall and chat till 10+ like tt... haha... then went back home and chat on the phone with PL... thankz for ya b'day greeting... ^^ and lots of my other frens did sms mi too... really feel so shock to actually receive so many sms from u guys... really thankz alot... thou all of them cannot celebrate with mi... i'm glad tt all of them rememebered my b'day... thankz alot... ^^ this yr's b'day is abit diff than usual lah... cos it's a really very quiet wan... next yr i hope i can hold a party of my own... then all u guys muz come... ok? haha... hmmm tml need to help ppl fix laptop... dunno can fix anot... muz see wat is the lappy's problem liaoz... later maybe gonna go out with my captain... today is his b'day... he wanna drag mi out.... hmmm wondering where will we be goin.... :\

2005-10-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

*YaWnZz* juz wake up sia... actually dun intend to sleep de... but every1 in the house is sleeping... my bro is sleeping in our room... den my sis and her bf is sleeping in their own room also... then i was the onli 1 in the living room... and got nth to do also... so might as well go to bed... haha... cos nth to do mah... and somemore no ppl will find mi de... tried looking for my buddies to tok today... but Matthew's hp not on... and he's not at home... then as for QW... he's in camp now... so no point calling him... haiz... really wanted so much to arrange 1 day for the 3 of us to meet up and have fun together... but it seems to be so hard... even if we meet up.... i still wonder... will we be able to get the kind of feeling we once had together? if we cant find back tt feeling... den how? but for mi all i wan is the find back the warmth and sense of belonging which we once had together... now i feel stuck... basket... stupid blogger lah... juz now i wan to blog but close for maintainance... den now can blog le... but all the stuff in my head gone liaoz... basket... guess i'm juz too bo liao huh... blog and blog and blog again... then get stuck in this entry again and again... oh ya... today i had this feeling.... everyone suddenly seems to weight alot in my life... i cannot afford to lose a single one of them.... not even one... guess i'm really emotionally very weak... i really need some1 who i can lean on... to share all my trouble and happiness... but too bad... i dun have tt mrs right... haha... a loner life... if i have a chance to tok to god... i'll ask him... am i born to be a loner...if he say "no" then i'll ask him... then y is my life so shit? did u planned it? but if he say "yes" then i ask him to pls release mi from this kind of suffering... and take mi back... cos i hate this feeling... everyday the onli feeling i have inside my heart is really sour and bitter... there's no sweetness or warmth... sooner or later all these can really made mi into a really cold person.... suddenly i feel tt i noe no warmth... except for all the cruel and cold feeling this world can give.... really envy those who are living in their own world of sweetness... i nv had such feeling... how does it feel? it muz be real gd... and u wont feel the coldness outside at all.... guess tt's the so called power of love ba... haha... frankly i really dunno how it feels... i tried to feel how is it like... it feels so familiar and yet so unfamiliar... y is it so? haiz... wah seh.... 1st time blog for whole 30mins sia... and yet so little is done... this wed is my b'day le... a day which is not worth to celebrate at all... cos it's the day my mum suffered great pain... and more pain after giving birth to mi... i'm such a let down... i've nv got gd result in my whole study life b4... and still give her lots of problem outside... fight with other ppl outside... tell lots of lies juz to get arnd with my mistakes... i'm so bad to the extend tt both my parents dun even believe mi anymore... wat i say... they'll always suspect whether i'm lying anot... so even if they dun believe mi i also dun really mind... cos i brought it upon myself... dunno wat's wrong with mi sia... i feel like i'm so depress again... haiz... got ppl ask mi to get a counsellor... but i can tell u... no use de... i still scare later the counsellor will go and commit suicide later... haha... k lah... guess this entry wont get to anywhere de... if i'm really not a loner... i hope tt someone will be there soon... or rather... tt someone who i need will be mine soon... haiz.... nobody will understand wat is deep down inside my heart... am i tt so deep to u ppl??

2005-10-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... wat a morning... haha... today is monday... ppl should be working... but here i am blogging away... cos i'm on half day leave today.... i used my leave instead of my off... for wat sia? it's for the chalet yesterday lah... by rite today nobody can off de... cos of the CO parade... *CO= Commanding Officer* so in order to get out i have to use leave... cos nobody can stop u from taking leave... so guys... use ur leave wisely... it will come in handy in times de... haha... well... this morning wake up didnt really feel well... but i'm gonna keep quiet abt it... let ppl noe for wat? haha... this morning had bread for breakfast... it's damn dry man... eat until wan to die... after tt went out to make phone call... wanna find some1 to tok to also cant sia... ppl are either sleeping, working, studying or nv on phone... haiz... but nvm lah... used to it liao... it's always at such times i cannot find a single soul de... hmmm really wonder where all of them go... do they have 6th sense knowing tt i gonna find them then they'll make themselves damn bz? or izzit i'm juz too free... haiya... dunno lah... juz fuck it lah... muz really learn to adopt the fuck it attitude liaoz... take everything so hard is nv gd for mi... last nite i still toking abt myself been too gd always think for others onli.... haha... tink i also tink too far liao hor... even tink to the part where my future family life... haha... gf also dun have... still tink so far... siao ehh lehz... ppl used to tell mi tt gals like guys who noe how to plan for their future... hey... it's BULLSHIT man! who gives a damn? haha... dun be stupid lah guys... this way nv work out de... plan and plan and plan for wat?? plan too much will kill alot of brain cells... then end up dying at young age like mi... better dun hor... can play juz play arnd lah... nowadays is diff from the past liao lor... who cares abt ur planning... ppl now onli noe how to see wat u have and wat u possess onli... u tell ppl ur plan... they will onli go... "ohh..." "wah..." after tt nobody will care... so trust mi... dun plan... juz play along with watever u have... cos nothing lives forever man... it's true and i believe... for example huh... this Mr A pass away laioz... ppl cry for him like no tml.... finally he's been buried... for the 1st few yrs... ppl who will still moan over his death will be like onli 20%? everyyear on his death anniversary ppl will go and pay their respect... another few yrs pass... how many ppl will still pay their respect for him? maybe 10%? then again... a few yrs pass... u will see tt nobody will even pay their respect to him... his forgotten.... then look at his tomb... filled with wild grasses growing on it... end up who is the wan clearing those grasses for him? those ah neh working there lor... how sad it is rite? so it's really no use tinking so much... cos 1 day... u and mi will all be forgotten... who the hell will wan to remember u?? siao... waste of brain memory ar... haha... k lah... seems like my blog is kinda weird huh... but guys... pls scroll down from my tagboard there... and u'll understand y... cos tt's my blogging characteristic... sian... i always feel so left out... Qiwei... Matthew... where are u guys... i really need u guys... i feel down and broken... 1st time blog till i feel like crying... i need u guys alot... btw we're not gays... we're juz very gd buddies for yrs... i miss our days together having fun and doing all the cock things together... pls come back to mi... i can take it no more.... i feel so damn condemn... onli u guys nv failed to give mi the warmth i needed the most... but too bad u guys nv read m blog... if u guys do... pls respond to my call... *broken*

2005-10-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

YaWnZz.... juz wake up.... wat a tiring day today is... morning got back from yishun... meet up with PL and came back home... get change and pack my bag... and set off to jurong sports complex with PL and my bro... had a day of fun over there.... met CK Yap over there... he gave mi some sun tanning lotion... then went over there for a gd sun tanning session... and we swim down there till 4+ and all got up to change... today i really wonder... lifeguard.... wat is the duty of a lifeguard? watch after the pool user's safety.... correct? but does tt include stuff like getting contact no of the user? hmmm feel like complaining... kns... so old laio still wanna go arnd and get ppl's contact.... Pui! haha.... not say i wat lah... juz tt i noe liao feel very bu shuang onli lah... after swimming send PL to mrt station as she wanna go down to amk... after tt i walk down to batok east to meet up with Dai Ming to collect some stuff from him... after tt met up with CK Yap again at westmall with other 2 guys from my ex sec sch... at arnd 7.20 CK left to go to his gf house.... heard tt his gf making noise liaoz.. so he muz guai guai go to her house... haha... reach home at arnd 7:40.. had chicken rice for dinner... after dinner not long... i juz KOed myself on my bed... feel damn exhausted... and somemore my left small thigh hurts man... today play with my bro in the pool till i kinda strain my small thigh muscle... haha... then now wake up le... dunno wat to do later.... tink i gonna go back sleep again.... *YaWnZz* monday still got guard lehz... haiz.... x_x

SUN BURNT!!!

2005-09-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

woot.... wat a day... juz came back from west coast cc... had a day of games with the youth group from Zhen De... which is from redhill tt side lah... played alot of funny games lah... ice breaking kinda sux i'll say.. cos cant really involve everybody and i totally shut off during the ice breaking game... after tt we had a mascot game... we dress up 1 of our team member to become bat man... haha... i draw the bat logo on his chest and back ok? mai siao siao... haha... after tt we had a game of basketball with them... haiz... our guys lose sia... but anyway... it's a good game... they're indeed better than us... haha... after tt the gals had a game of captain ball.. for tt we win lah... well done gals! esp my sis... haha... mai hao lian hor... :P after tt was lunch... i had chicken rice for lunch... not bad lah.. rather tasty... hohoho... then our last game of the day was a drama.. but we are not allowed to say the word "Ni" "Wo" and "Ta" not in any language... kinda fun.. i had the mistake once.. and my sis draw a turtleo n my hand.. basket... haha... and guess wat... CR got come sia... had abit of chat with him lah... dunno y lah... dun seem to have much to tok with him also liaoz.. maybe mi and him really got a gap liaoz... after all those activity... we played abit of volleyball while the ppl from the communitee had a debrief session which doesnt involve mi... kekeke... and finally i'm back home here blogging away... haiz... later gonna go back camp again le... kinda sian.. looking forward for coming sat... gonna go swimming... hohoho... still looking for a swimming complex to go.... hmmm..... still tinking away.... cracking my brain... haha... ^^ today sun burnt... guess next week i'll sun burnt myself again... haha.... juz a feeling lah... cos i noe everytime i go swimming sure burnt myself de... kekeke...

2005-09-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

hey hey~!~! i'm back~!~! hmmm quite long nv blog le.... got miss mi?? haah... ok i noe i'm crazy to ask such question in my bloggy... haha.... well... let's see wat i do this week... ehh... kinda forget le... aiya.. actually also nth much happen lah... then let's juz say wat happen today lah... haha... my memory is failing mi liao sia... kekeke... die.... haha... today went driving outcamp.... send my fren to ayer rajah camp... haha... along the way we crap alot sia... cos onli the 2 of us... basket he really damn joker... 1000000 times better than mi sia... make mi luff until cannot concentrate on my driving... haha... but u noe lah... army vehicle damn slow de.. can onli go 50km/h and from khatib camp to there was so damn far... have to go up CTE then AYE.... basket... then reach there my fren went to find his last time instructor to ask him some technical stuff lah... then i juz wal arnd see see lor... it's so big man their garage... really eye opening... haha... k i noe i kinda sua gu... haha... after tt at 2+ we made our back camp... then as army vehicle cannot do a right turn outside the camp.. so we turn leftl or.. then basket we dunno how to go back from the left turn... then we anyhow liao lor... drive and drive... drive until almost get into orchard!!! haha... then can u imagine army vehicle go orchard?! haha.... then we try all sort of way to get out lah... then my fren still can see those sch gals and say... "hi ladies! see 2 lost army boys?" wah lau ehh... i listen laio sian diaoz.... haha... ah bo he'll say things like "need aride back home?" basket!!! army vehicle lehz... he tink wat? can anyhow ar?? alemak... ahah... but still it's damn funny lah.. the way he tok... keke... then along the way almost accident sia... damn taxi.... single lane lehz.. then he juz suddenly zam brake... then i have less than 10 meter de distance to react lor... then i juz brake and squeeze thru the tiny space in between... luckily still can get thru... then my fren was like stunned... haha... then he keep saying... "NO~~~~ NO~~~~" haha... feel like slapping him sia... irritating monkey... haha.. then after tt go back camp wait for book out... after book out went to a coffeeshop nearby for dinner with my fren... then saw my encik and a few staff sgt... then sit together tok cock together... keep luffing also when those encik complaint abt those damn lazy storeman we have in our battalion.. haha... then arnd 8 we start to take train back... now resting at home... leg damn tired... haiz... hao lei hao lei.... haiz... anybody can give mi a gd message? haha... :P

btw... lao ban... some ppl are like tt wan lehz.. they wan to be rude let them be lor... juz dun get affected by them.. stay happy always... keep smiling! ^^

2005-09-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

haiz.... i'm back here blogging again... yesterday went for outfield sia... feeling kinda stupid plus dumb... cos initially i was told tt i dun have to go out for the outfield... then i was asked to mount the signal sets onto the vehicle and our radar system... thou it sux but i still do lah... cos i no need to go outfield wat... u ppl may not noe lah.... setting up the signal set sux man... under the damn hot sun... sweat like waterfall juz to screw some nuts in... while those who need to go outfield will stay in their bunk and rest... by 12:30 i almost got all my stuff done.... then my officer come over and tell mi... say i have to go outfield... becos tt other signaller cannot go.... i was like O_O! WTF MAN! sadly i drag myself up to get change and get my stuff... at 2p.m we set off to Simpang... guess nobdoy noe wat is it lah... it's the place where we have our outfield training... i'm on the recce section.. have to go to diff part of simpang to look for a gd location to set up our arthur to do tracking... then at the 1st recce point... it's a gd place... but the moment our 1.5 ton enter... it got stuck in the mud... -.-" more than 1/2 the wheel is inside... then we need to push the vehicle out... and in tt stupid process i burnt my finger... but seems like our strength is too small... so it's our arthur who had to tow the vehicle out... haha... soon after tt we carry on and look for other gd location... but at this time.. our equippment is spoilt... and tt calls it a day for us... cos we cant do anything with tt equippment down...got back to camp clean up our stores and send our rifle back and we're allowed to go back to sleep... then as for today... nth much lah... had a phone chat with PL.. then got 1/2 day off... then meet her for awhile.. then ppl now sleeping sia... guess i gonna make a move soon... sianz....

2005-09-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

haiz... i'm back again... guess i'm really bored huh... wat to do?? i got nothing to do... TOTALLY NOTHING to do... haiz... feeling kinda sad man... y muz u tink tt way tt u'll die?? haiz... everythings gonna be ok man... k lah.. guess to everybody i onli tok rubbish... how many will actually listen to wat i say? to others... watever comes out from my mouth are all nothing but juz rubbish onli ba... guess i'm somebody who cannot give ppl advice de... cos u guys nv listen to wat i say... initially ppl say it's gd tt i'm some1 who can tok cock and cheer ppl up... but nobody noes the side effect huh... guess i'm suffering seriously with this side effect... ppl take my words like rubbish... even the rubbish dump smells nicer than my words... haiz...

2005-09-11T14:46:00.000+08:00

wooo... once again i so long nv blog again.... haha... kinda lazy or rather tired ba... body's been weak again... haiz.... cant really remember wat have i done recently... haha.... then i juz say wat i do yesterday ba... yesterday was really bored at home sia... and so i drag my bro along with mi to orchard... haha.. cos my cousin say my bro like very mountain turtle... ask him go where he also dunno how to go... haha... so i brought him out for a tour out to the town area... 1st.. we go down to fast east plaza to see see walk walk... after tt we walk down to Heeren go there see my cd... and took a tour at the annex x... juz walk arnd blindly inside... haha... after tt we went down to paragon... lots of branded store inside sia... see the price... eye will pop out sia... haha.. too expensive for a National Service man.... haha... after tt we went down to plaza singapura to play game... haha... my performance is really lousy yesterday.... keep losing to com lehz... com lehz... haiz... how can make it?? if ppl challenge mi then i sure lose liao lor... after tt at arnd 7 we took cab home.. cos dun wan later come back too late get nag by my parents... haha... after tt at arnd 9 then i reach Sun plaza... went to walk the movie Red Eye with PL... my mei tell mi say wat it's abt a gal get possessed by ghost or wat then commit murder... basket.... NO LOR!! it's a thriller show... kinda boring i will say... haha... after tt went to mac to grab some bite... after tt send her home laio i took train back... damn basket sia... yesterday go orchard walk wlak still can sprain my leg... already injured my right leg... not my left leg... haiz... the pain is juz like the wan i injured tt time in tekong... haiz... hopefully it wont end up like my right leg now... sighz... tonite no need to book in... cos tml is battalion off... at nite then go back... dunno wat to do lehz... haiz... k lah.. maybe i'll blog again at nite ba... haha.... leg pain... >_<

2005-09-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

well... i am back at home to blog again.... last nite was doin guard duty... so i nv blog.. last nite was a really long nite... cos i wasnt feeling well at all throughout the whole duty... cos i was having headache... and it make mi feel like vomiting... then this morning after guard i went back to my bunk and K.O right away... keep on sleeping until 12+ then get up... wake up really feel dead sia... breathing also got prob... then vomit haiz.... so in the end i went to report sick... see the doc.. he ask mi some question.. do some funny stuff... then he told mi say.. he wanan send mi to do drip... i was like O_O! drip?! but bo bian lah... sick muz drip wat... then go do the drip lor.. the medic who do the poking for mi.... is a PTE... PTE nv.. the worst thing is.. he juz PASS OUT from course onli!!! stunned sia.. frankly speaking.. he poke damn pain lah... but ppl juz pass out mah.. so i tell him say.. ok lah.. not pain lah... gd job... LOL!! the drip is 1litre sia... need to drip 4hrs... power rite?? then i damn bo liao i even took the pic of my hand when the poking is done... wan to see pls go to my photoalbum to see... haha.... later gonan go back camp le... tml still need to drive.. haiz... hope i will be better tml ba..... haiz....

2005-09-04T21:02:00.000+08:00

here i am to blog again.... haiz.... today is kinda like a long long long day... this morning i woke up at 8 in camp.... and the damn duty personnel is still not here to take over mi... nvm... cos i expected tt already... tt lousy fellow... sheesh... finally he took over mi at 8:40a.m then i start to booko ut from camp and took a train back home... then did i found out tt my hp headset 1 side spoilt le... haiz... charger also abit sot liaoz... sux... then at arnd 11 i went over to my fren house for the youth group activity... today's activity is boring i will say... then went to westmall for lunch... had a small discussion abt this coming mooncake festival.. came back home for awhile... then go to my uncle house to pray... dunno wat's wrong with his mum today... keep crying and screaming away.. anyway she's abit siao wan.. so we all bo chap her... then came back home was rotting all the way till now.... haiz... time seems to pass so slow... in fact for today... i feel really very very lost... and empty deep down inside my heart... haiz... i cant take this anymore.... really feel like goin bonkers anytime anywhere.... sob... sob... gonna book in later... but later i'll be all alone in the bunk... cos my fren is doin guard today... tml there will be no entry... cos i'll be doin guard... dunno how am i goin to do my guard with the kind of situation i am in now... pls save mi..... :(

2005-09-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

hmmmm finally back at home... spend a damn meaningless week in camp... cos this week is rather free lah... nth to do... but next week gonna get bz.. need to shift our garage to the new garage... haiz.... today marcus ORD already... come back take ic also nv bother to come and find us... anyway.. .congratz to u... finally free liaoz... dunno y.... i feel so sux man... i really dunno wat ppl take mi as... happy onli find mi tok... can crap can watever... mood not gd also come and find mi... not to cheer u up... but wat? vent all ur frustration to mi... ya i noe i may be nice. but does tt means u can vent everything onto mi even thou it's not my fault? or rather... nothing to do with mi at all....wtf is this?? i'm a human too ok? i have feeling too... once in awhile nvm... now it's like everytime.. ah bo sometimes even take mi like a ball... pass to this pass to that... wtf? dun wan say dun wan lah... dun treat mi like a ball... get throw arnd or even kick arnd like nobody business... then now wat? my card no credit liaoz... but dun wanna spoilt the mood.. so i get up and take the risk of being scold... to use internet sms... wat u say? wat i bluff u... for fuck i bluff u... u didnt even bother to ask y... fuck it lah fuck it lah.... everybody like to treat mi this way.. wat can i say? do i look like osme fucking tools for venting frustration?? i really dun get it.... wat have i done wrong to deserve all this.... really dun understand at all... y all these negative things muz happen when i've decided to lead a happier life? WHY?!?!?! DAMN THIS FUCKING WORLD!

2005-08-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

haiz..... back home to blog le... haha.. could have reach home quite early today wan... cos we're all told to clear half day off... initially wanted to go home wan... but my fren say he feels kinda sian to go home juz like tt.. so we went down to orchard.. siao rite?? early noon 12plus got 2 ah gong walking along orchard... not much ppl wan lor.. then he say how abt we go play pool.. so i say ok lor... went to far east shopping centre to play pool... i onli win the 1st rnd... then lose all the way liaoz.. haha.. i admit lah.. i sux in pool man... then he happily keep winning lor.... until arnd 6 then we left orchard... then i also wats wrong with mi.. i told the train from the wrong side.. then go the damn long way back... go via woodland tt side de... stand until i vomit blood... then reach home at 7+ -.-" sian diao.. then bath and tok cock abit with my mum.. then here i am blogging away... later gonna book in liaoz... haiz... sian lehz... dunno wat's install for us tml... haiz.... i feel so tired... i dunno y... my body feels so weak..... -.-ZZZzzz...

2005-08-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

wah seh juz book in sia.... stupid weather... when i was somewhere near the damn gate it rained.... -.-" even the weather also wan to play tricks on mi... suan liaoz... haiz... today is my battalion off day... went down to panjang to find my grandpa... long time nv go panjang to find him le... chat with him or awhile then went down to amk le... help ppl to pass notes to fren in SP... -.-" after tt go back to my granpa house again to play game.. hehe... had dinner over there as well... da bao by my uncle.. the food kinda sux i muz say... LOLX!!! after tt went home... relax for awhile then come back to camp le... now feeling kinda.... pissed off... i got hang over the phone sia... reason for hanging up is... "ur surrounding is very noisy..." noisy?? i was walking over a open field with no ppl arnd mi... and i ask wat noise is it... the answer is "air" wat the..... sua lah... it's nv easy been a nice guy.... suxor!!

2005-08-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... unknowingly i've not blog for 1 week le... hmmm.... is tt bad?? dunno lehz... haha... i cant really remembered wat i did for the pass 1 week... i onli noe our camp got this stupid security check... wah lau ehh... make all our lifes so miserable... check this check tt... then still have wat risk management... sux wan lah... small little thing also scare we get injured or wat... and our officers are all quite fed up... haha.... cos it's really stupid lah.... scare our powerpoint for charger then will lead to fire outbreak... stupid rite?? haha... then wat i remember is i also watched the movie Perth:the greylang masscare tink isl ike tt spell lah... lazy to check it out also... haha... it's so caleld rated sg most violent production.... to mi personally... i find tt... sg this movie in term of violance lvl is considered disney to other country wan lor... haha... then last nite meet up with Mao Yi.... my sec 2 counsellor... with a few of my frens.... went to attend his church performance... they got this show put up at suntec exhibit hall... it's called the Spook show lah... they have quite a number of ppl dress up like ghost.. but i find them rather funny... dunno y got gals scare until cry... -.-" so scary mehz?? haha... i still can tease the ghost... haha... but mainly it's a so called magic show lah... quite nice... the magician say he wanna bring us to explore the power of the dark side... make it sound so woot.... but in the end he say... actually all this are so aclled tricks... then as usual lah... like any other church activities... they'll start to ask ppl like who are those 1 time come wan lah... then persuade ppl to convert... haha... i juz sat there and watch... after tt went to suntec with my frens and mao yi to eat abit of food... cos nv really eat dinner lehz... after tt we all board train and head back home le... then today sleptl ike dead pig.. cant even wake up for my youth group today... end up also nv go... then today juz stayed at home the whole day... dunno y lah... my eyes both eyes feel kinda swollen... very hard to open like tt.... ma jiam got ppl put weight on my eye lid... haha... today no need book in... tml is battalion off... shiok sia... but dunno wat i gonna do tml... anybody free to jio mi? haiz... doubt so lah.... wat a boring day.... :(

2005-08-21T17:46:00.000+08:00

hmm..... is it time to blog again?? haha tink so ba... today i have a very special feeling... yea... a really special 1... still remembered tt today early morning at 12:10a.m i was feeling so down.... yea.. damn down.... then this morning i still drag myself to Tian Hui Fou Tang for the Jia Ting Du Jing Re.... i was sitting alone in the hall... yea i didnt even sit with my bro... had a conflict with him... shall not tok abt it... then i was so damn sian.. regretted goin at the beginning... and lots and lots of trouble inside my dark enclose mind.... but when the Du Jing program start... things start to change... i dunno how come.. i kinda like i can understand every single phrase in it so easily.. ya... damn easily... even i myself also cannot believe it... like suddenly i become so clever... haha... and for the 1st time.. i can feel tt all these Jing Dian actually have all the answer to all my doubt in it... during this session i feel kinda enlighten... haha... i also like suddenly can feel myself being able to take things more lightly.. now i truly believe tt.. if u love something... set it free... if it's urs... it'll still come back to u 1 day... dunno y in the past i'm so stubborn... still die die hold on to it so tightly.. i gonna let go now... and now i believe... if somebody needs u... he/she will automatic come to u... i will no longer be so stupid to send myself to tt person and bang the wall so hard again.. it hurts ok?! haha... from now on... i should be able to be more happy ba... really muz thank god tt i went for Du Jing today... i canfeel tt i'm a better and happier person today... i wan to be more and more better and happier as day goes by... to those who has always been standing by my side all these while... i wanna say a BIG THANK U!!! for helping mi and i'm so ignorant to actually not notice it... i noe even a hundreds, thousands or millions of thankz will nv be enuff... so i hereby will like to invite all of u all to be the wan to continue to help mi as i go on... can? i promise... 1 day.. i will be better and much much more happier than the Lingzhi u all noe b4.. it's a deal k? ^^ really love ya guys lots man!!! HAHA!!! getting mushy liaoz.... haha... :P

2005-08-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

haiz... wat a day...... i actually stay at home the whole day sia... ok lah.. i noe i cannot go anywhere also... with my eyes in this state... ma jiam cyclop sia... go out ppl all sure will siam mi wan lah... haiz... it's so boring at home...cannot do anything... feel so helpless... i took my breakfast and lunch together sia... cook 1 packet of instant noodles and 1 egg and tt's my breakfast cum lunch le... haha power hor? all i did today is juz watch tv... luckily i got cable tv... ah bo i dunno wat funny things i'll do laioz... i almost go bonkers at home sia... sian to the extreme lehz... then in the noon at 4+ like tt my sis say she wanna play maple... ok lor let her play.. then i go sleep.. haha.. today sure fat sia... do nth... but watch tv sleep and eat onli... haiz... tml is another day... i cant imagine wat i will do tml sia... maybe something stupid? maybe something funny? i dunno lehz... haiz... today i tried not find anybody... see anybody will bother to find mi anot... haha i noe i'm bo liao lah... and of cos.. nobody bother to find mi lah.. except the call from camp... and it's a wrong call somemore... how blur can my camp ppl be?? then at nite... practically do nth... but play the stupid maple to kill time... and chat with my frens... later 11pm gonna offline liaoz... ya... they wanna keep my modem again wat.. wat to do?? sianz... hate my life.... >:(

2005-08-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

haiz... so long nv update le wor.... haha.... plain laziness and also.. i can hardly access the net ... due to my old father huh... always trying to be finny and keep our modem... then make our lives so difficult... ok lah.. dun wanna grumble abt him.. cos grumble so much also no use... cos thigns wont change wat... haha.... hmmm...today i'm back home le.... actually dun have wan lah... but this morning my eyes is rather teary and red.... my left eye i mean... then i went to see the M.O.. kns... today the M.O like got PMS sia.... siao ehh... i come in onli screw mi liaoz.. ask cock question.
M.O: y? u r married ar??
Mi: no sir...
M.o: then y got ring on ur finger?
Mi: sir i wear this very long laioz...
M.O:wan mi to help u take out anot?
Mi: no sir...
M.O: who is ur BC (Battery Commander)
Mi: Captain Goh sir...
M.O: He gd fellow?
Mi: he is a gd commander Sir...
M.O: very gd to u?
Mi: no sir... he is very gd to all his men sir...
M.O: got discipline anot?
Mi: Yes sir...
M.O: like this call got discipline? *pointing at my finer*
Mi: it's mi who dun have discipline sir..
M.o: *smiling away* very gd.. ur battery got a gd men.. protect his battery...
Mi:-.-"

cock rite?? wah lau ehh.... then ask mi stupid things.. y eyes get infection?? how the hell would i noe?? if i noe i still need to see u mehz?? stupid cockster... then he say give mi 1 day mc.. wah lau sore eye 1 day can heal meh?? then i happily go home sleep awhile... the eye drop he give didnt work... so i went down to batok polyclinic to see the doc.. the doc see my eyes like kinda stun sia... then she give mi 3 days mc... 3 days mc lehz... tt's more like it mah... haha.. so for the new 3 days i'll be at home... keke... k lah... dunno wat to write liaoz... will anybody visit mi while i'm on mc?? ah.. doubt so lah.... haiz..... eyes really very painful... SUX!!

2005-08-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

wat a day in camp again.... haha... i'm ON DUTY AGAIN!!!! wah lau ehh si bei sian.... duty until i lau bak sai... ppl all today go hm relax and get ready to enjoy tml sia.. then mi lehz?? still in this filthy "dirty" camp doing duty... it's really very "dirty" in here... if u guys get wat kind of dirty i mean lah hor... not onli mi... mi and the other 2 other personnel encounter things like mine too... then was spending the nite surfing net... then juz now while toking on phone... i kicked the metal... and it bleeds.... wat the hell... lousy leg... tml morning tt duty personnel better come on time man... if he book in at 8+ again i sure complaint until he die... LOL evil rite? but who cares?? it's my public holiday tml man mind u!!! haiz.... tml morning maybe have to go breakfast alone sia... anybody wanna go breakfast with mi?? call mi k?? hehe.. i'll be out of camp by 7+ or 8 if nth goes wrong.... haha... hope so lah hor...

2005-08-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

hmmmm another day had passed..... didnt do much today... cos i'm still in camp doin duty... morning wake up 5+ go up change to my no.4 uniform and went down for flag raising.... after tt come back to office and fall asleep again... and unknowingly i slept till 11+ then wake up... went down to get my lunch...lunch is fried rice... taste rather sucky lah... then came back to online again... do alot of net surfing.. dl some tuff into my phone... got new themes... and a few songs too... and chat with my bro thru msn... haha... then play the stupid darkthrone for the whole day... feeling damn sick man... stupid fever... then at 6 went for flag lowering... stupid rite?? weekend still raise flag for wat sia?? for who to see??? ghost ar? dunno lah... then keep on online till now lor... dinner was sucky too... haiz... tot weekend food should be nice.. but today wan is all bullsh!t sia.... haha... my fren juz come back from marina... complaining the shit he suffer there... haha... really dunno wat to blog also le... tink i goin to go sleep soon ba... haiz... wat a day... all the bad things keep happening to mi... sianz....

2005-08-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

hmmmm here i am to blog agian... in my camp again... at this hour.... haha.. today is the 1st day of the 7th lunar month... and as usual... my head is killing mi again... i dunno y... every 7th lunar mth i sure have this kind of headache.... it's so damn painful sia... but nvm lah... can try to get used to it de... . today i was wondering... a simple but hard to explain de topic.... so Ladies and Gentlemen... i would like to present to u my topic for today.... and it is.... FRIENDS.
Friends... a term we use on ppl we noe... or rather ppl wo are slightly closer to us other than strangers... now here is my question... ever heard this phrase b4?? a true fren is always there for u... when u need them... guess all of u out there will agree to this phrase ba... but wat i wonder is... when u need someone... tt someone therefor u is consider a true fren...then when u dun need them ne?? where will they be?? will they ever be in ur heart when u dun need them? or u onli rememeber them when u r down or when u need someone.. juz someone there.. if u need someone... and he/she is there for u... tt he or she is considered as a true fren... but when u dun need them... wat does they mean to u?? have u ever spare a thought for tt?? and if tt person is alway there ready for u.. he/her is a true fren... but u onli rememeber them when u need them... then wat kind of fren are u ne?? are u considered as a true fren?? or juz someone who will onli rememeber him/her when u need them... wat kind of fren are u?? or rather... can u evern call urself a fren to tt person?? when tt peson give u wat a true fren should give.. and how many ppl out there do u really considered as fren ne?? how many can u really keep in ur heart?? how many can u truly rememeber?? and how many of them has ever really do something tt really touch ur heart and u can really considered him/her as a true fren?? haha... tt's abt all lah... tink my entry today is again nth but rubbish.... wat to do?? headache wat... cannot tink properly... LOLX!!! anybody care to share this topic with mi?? feel free to contact mi... ^^ and thankz for reading my rubbish.... keke... =P

2005-08-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

hmmmm here i am to blog again.... regarding my last entry.... ya tink i've tink too much le lah... i shouldnt have... and i couldnt also... but suan le... wat's over is over... Roxy lao ban... thankz for the tag... diff ppl have diff points of view ba... maybe like wat junky had said.... i take things to my heart to easily lah... Yun... thankz for reading also... well.... today is a rainy day.... so damn cold... a rather gd weather to slp... but sad to say.. i gonna book in later laioz... and the most sian part is.... from tml on... i'll be on duties from fri early morning 6:30a.m till Sunday morning 7:30a.m hopefully.... if tt day duty personnel come late.. i gonna kill him man... haha... being spedning my whole day at home yesterday... mostly lah... did went down to Sim Lim to buy SOft case... and went to my uncle's store to kaypo.. or rather rot... ppl there still remember mi.. haha... after 1yr plus nv go there... i'm surprise they still rememeber mi... haha... feel so happy... but on the other hand... i'm still down with the god damn fever.... wah lah... god u condemn mi ar?? keep giving mi ur god damn fever... kns... i'll hate u wan hor... haha... ya u will tink i'm siao... i agree i'm siao lah... toking nonsense again... hopefully can recover faster ba... so far till now... i've being having a rather quiet day... nobody to tok to... nobody to disturb or watever...hmmm... tt's so unlike mi.... wonder where's the super li siao siao mi in the past.. where had he go?? had he juz left mi without saying a word? i dunno... quite alot of ppl feel tt i'm insane... tink i really am huh.. haha... have been wondering alot of things... am i a gd bf? doubt so... (thou i'm single now... haha) am i someone very posessive?? is it very?? or juz a little?? am i tt bad?? i got no answer for all... hmmm... wondering wondering.... nth to do... wonder abit more nvm lah... so wont get lao nian chi dai so fast mah... haha... ok i noe i'm crazy.... SIAO! haha... guys.. pls feel free to tag at my shoutbox pls... it looks so lonely... at least give mi something to keep mi moving on k? thankz a million if u bother to do so... if u dun.... GO DIE LAH!!!! wahahahaha.... :P siao gin na.... ^0^V

2005-08-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

haiz.... juz come back from batok interchange le... sent PL to take train... ppl got new fren liao sia... ok lah.. wat to do? xi xin yan jiu... k lah.. i also cannot say anything lah... ppl juz help her sent com to her sch... which is his job lor... then mi lehz? i format com... do update... help ppl tell technician the laptop prob.... then wat did i get?? xi xin yan jiu.... suan liaoz.... juz feeling so bu shuang... maybe should go to Cheers and buy a can of BU SHUANG and drink hor.... haha... but nvm lah... who am i to go and feel so much rite?? suan liao suan liaoz... tt kind of feeling is sucky... well i noe... cos i dun have much fren wat.... every fren means alot to mi... certain frens can mean alot to mi... some may not be so... but i cannot take it when ppl treat mi tt way...izzit becos i'm too kind?? too good?? and so ppl can take mi for granted?? or rather ppl always take mi for granted.. tink so ba... has anybody even been grateful to mi? i guess not lah huh... maybe to them i do all this is wat i should do de lah hor... or rather they can tink... "i nv ask u do wat... u urself wan to do de..." fine... i'm the idiot ok?! suan le... blog so much also nobody will noe or see... neither will ppl cares... 1st time i feel so blown up... DAMN!

2005-08-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

hmm back to blog again... in camp.... juz came back from my guard duties.... feeling rather tired and sick too... but well... i'm not gonna let any1 in my cmap noe i'm sick... haha... hmmm today my encik is not in camp... ppl on leave sia... gd life... haha... well... he's a regular wat... he work longer and harder than us wat... haha... juz got a news tt tml i may need to drive to marina... sad... have to go so far... wat i fear the most is later got to drive back on my own again... last nite guard duty is ok lah... go patrolling arnd... but the RP is rather slack.. he still tot of not even wan to patrol... of cos i nv let him do tt lah... i'm a gd guy k? haha... and 1 gd news.... my standby period had juz been changed... tink is next standby then i will kanna... so now can relax abit... haha no need to pack my field pack... packing of field pack sux ok... for those who had not gone thru army... or dun have to go thru... haha... but this fri sat i got duties!!! ARGH~!~!~! then mon duty again.. tt's the most f*ck up things lah... so i was planning to take off either tml or thurs... haha... at least let mi enjoy osme free time for this week ba... b4 i got lock up in this place again... haha... k lah... today i blogged rahter lots of rubbish.... haha... tt's all for now ba... if can access net again then blog again lor.... keke... :P

2005-07-30T02:40:00.000+08:00

here i am to blog again... today's gonna have a super long entry i guess... today i've been thinking alot again... alot of things flashes in my mind... 1st... i was on this very very old Trans bus... then i was sitting in this a considered high seat in the bus... then it brings mi back to the time when i was so small tt if i sit on the normal seat.. i cannot see the things outside... then i'll always drag my grandma to sit on the higher seat of the bus juz to see the things outside... haha... then as the journy goes on... things during my course flashes my mind... and my this fren... named Timonthy appear... he's a real funny guy in the course... who nv fails to brighten all our days with all his funny jokes and move... but the sad thing is... after the course... he's being posted for overseas posting for 1 yr... it may be good.. it may be bad.. depending on how he sees it ba... but till now i still dunno is he still in sg or has he already been posted to overseas... lastly this comes to my mind... at the age of 22... wat could ppl at my this age had achieve? a stable job? stable income... car? or maybe even preparing to get married... ya i believe it's all possible... rather than having a life like mi now... still serving in the army... to ppl outside they'll still tink... u're not stable enuff... pratically u're useless... cos of wat? no stable job... no income... cos in army u're juz drawing allowance.. not salary... dun even tink abt cars... go play arcade car game more like it... getting married? DREAM ON! ppl are realistic.. u cannot provide them anything.. which gal with the rite mind will wan to follow u when she can have a guy with all these things like job... car... NO WAY a gal will wan to be with u if she can choose... man are all selfish... nv blame the gal if she choose to be with a f*ck up guy instead of u... cos he got the job and car... and u? u got nth... eat urself man! sorry if i offended anybody... this is my blog.. i juz type wat i have inside... but no worry... u ppl outside can go ahead and look down on mi... laugh at mi.... condemn mi... i dun care... one day.... all of u will regret... or maybe worse.. u may not even get to see mi arnd anymore... i noe wat i wan to do... wat i have to do... anyway... the life noe... totally SUCK! guess tt's abt all i wan to say ba... got no wish to write wat i've been doing today... cos who cares? as long as i'm still alive it's enuff... isnt it? ya i tink so...

2005-07-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

hmmmm another day has past..... tml goin for my physiotheraphy le... after tt i goin back to camp le... haiz.... had been feeling rather down all these while.... i also dunno wat's wrong with mi too... today is such a cold day.... had been raining the whole day.... it's cooling i'll say... i always love this weather alot... but today is special... it's a cold and yet lonely day for mi... been at home and rot... watch tv... listen to songs.... trying to find ppl to chat also.... but to no valid of cos... ppl are all bz... with sch... or with work... the feeling of lonliness nv failed to get mi at times like this.... today keep sleeping and sleeping... later tonite gonna had a hard time trying to sleep also le.... haiz... now dunno wat to blog also... oh ya... i've manage to get my blog's mp3 to play again le... i love this song alot... hope u ppl will like it too.... ^^ take care all... lonliness is calling for mi again le....

2005-07-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

haiz.... so long nv blog again le... guess nobody will read also lah... i also dunno i blog for wat too.... haiz.... well.... juz blog lor since i'm here already... haiz... actually i also got nth to blog too.... maybe i'll juz blog down wat feeling i am having now.... i feel so small... so powerless... no matter how hard i try to do 1 thing... i can nv succeed... ya... nv.... i feel demoralised... got no motivation to carry on also.... y is it so hard to get tt something when u noe it so well tt u will need it and treasure it.... but yet... it still cannot be urs... it's neither hard nor easy to get it... the key to success is in the hand of it... but too bad... it dunno how to make a decision... haiz... i've tried and tried and tried... guess i'm juz not gd enuff ba... tt's y i cannot get it yet... but i'll keep on trying... i dun tink tt i'm wasting my time...

2005-07-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

haiz.... back from NUH le..... sad sia... today went down for appointment... my appointment was 3:25p.m..... i reach on time.. yet then let mi wait and wait until 4:20p.m then my turn... went in to see the doc... he straight away ask mi... wan to operation anot? i was like... O_O!! so jialat meh?? then he say... actually can dun need..... scares mi... basket.... then ask mi to continue physiotherapy for another 3 more mths... then he gonna downgrade mi le... haiz... i dun ahve a choice.... it's a muz to downgrade... then after tt come back home laioz... rot till now... later gonna go back camp sia... haiz.... dunno y i still feel so tired... damn exhausted... dunno wat's wrong sia.... this kind of tired feeling is so scary... i feel as if i'm losing my energy more and more each day... having so much trouble and puzzle inside mi.... haiz....

2005-07-16T15:32:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmm...... almost 10 days nv blog le wor... haiz.... been quite bz recently with camp shifting and stuff... haiz.. dun wanna tok abt camp lah.... juz wanna tok abt happy happening ba... haha.... thursday juz went down to kallang river for a dragonboat competition... haha... my 1st time riding dragonboat somemore... it's a really nice experience... thou i keep hitting my fingers by the paddle and the gunrail.. abit blue black.. but it's fun! at least we got 2nd... haha... hmmm dunno y i feel so blank now.... izzit becos too long no blog le?? dunno leh... suddenlyl ost of words to type... haha... oh ya... this morning i saw our CR at batok mrt station.. hmmm.... tt time i was still quite sleepy... i tot i see wrong person sia... cos he was walking with a gal huh.... walking together nvm... holding hands somemore wor!!! haha... but congrates to him lah hor.... after so long... he finally found his "chun tian" again le... haha... he cnanot come into my blog so i type he also dunno... haha... then went down to PL house to help her do her survey.... quite easy lah... took mi less than half an hour... then come back home le... ppl need to study for exam.. dun wan to bother ppl.. now feeling so sleepy sia... gonna go sleep le.. tonite goin to tian hui for da zong ban.... *YaWnZzZz* i feel so exhausted... wat's wrong with mi??

oh ya... i've uploaded the pic i took at kuantan le.. u cna click on myphotoalbum tt link to go in and see.... i doubt there'll be anybody reading this blog also.. but nvm lah... juz type for the sake of typing ba... this blog in dying.... haiz...

2005-07-09T09:21:00.000+08:00

hmmmm i so long nv blog again liao ar?? haha... bo bian... been quite bz in camp with all the weird weird stuff... and plus i'm SICK!! yea... SICK again! Sheesh.... this morning wake up i'm sneezing away again.... bth... now my nose feel so terrible... but nvm la.... suan liaoz... let mi see wat else did i do for this week... actually also nth much lah... cos i also cant really remember liao.... keke... my memory is getting from bad to worse... oh.. ya... my sony ericsson is spoilt!!! goddamnit!!! but nvm... spoilt spoilt lor... hack lah... haha... hmmm then last nite where was i...... oh i was at yishun at 1st... meet up with PL.... ppl bz with coming exam sia... then after reading so long she juz ask mi... "ze me ban?" keep asking the same question.... like siao cha bo... haha... then i also ki siao with her lah... i go approach ppl ask the same question she ask mi... haha..... crazy sia... then my poor finger kana bite... now blue black liaoz lah.... ARGH~! as for today still dunno wat to do lehz... haiz.... wat a boring plus sick day... guys do take care man... the weather is F**k up.... drink up or drop out... haha... see this from a poster in my camp de... reallym uz drink alot of water... or else u'll drop out man... keke... ok lah... today's blog is mainly rubbish onli... haha... :P

2005-07-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm hi guys.... i'm back from kuantan... well well... wat can i say abt this trip.... all i can say is... it SUX!! 1st time i go M'sia and come back saying it sux.... ok 1st... on friday nite we took the bus to the custom... the bus is said to be leaving batok at 10:30p.m but the bus waited until 11 then come... den nvm... when we reach the custom and board the bus.. we all have a seat lah... then it's like those Grassland the bus lah... big big chair.... but f**k up... esp the last row... cos we took the last row with mi bro and cousin.. at nite sleep acnnot even stretch my leg out at all.. cos the chair in front is in my way... argh~! so had a damn bad sleep tt nite... then the next day morning... early morning... bring us go climb hill to see the sleeping buddha... nice scenery... but i sprained my left ankle... will upload pic i taken in kuantan to my photo album soon... then next we went to this so called ruin village... walk on this very old bridge... used mainly robe and planks onli to tie on the 2 end wan... not very shaky.. but dunno y ppl seems to be very scare... -.-" then till noon reach a temple... they go pray lah... i nv.. i stay in bus and slp.. cos not enuff slp mah... waited till noon 3+ then can check in hotel... stayed at this hotel called Swissgarden... not bad... tink it's a 5 star hotel.. then we're paired up to go to each room lor... but sadly.. i'm the odd 1 out... but nvm lah.. cos i got a queen sized bed room all for myself.. LOLX!! shoik sia... big bathtub big bed... big room.. keke... then at nite went to fou tang... watch performance.. no comments on it... then at nite my bro and 2 other frens came to my room watch tv and ate pizza... haha..1 pizza is 21rm which is arnd s$10+ nia... somemore is large pizza.. keke.. on sun morning... went to have buffet breakfast... rather normal wan.. not very nice also... :/ then took some group photo by the beach... the beach is nice... very fine and shiny sand... but water not very clear... but it's alot more better than sg... after we check out at 11+ we board on our bus and went down to batu bahat tink is like tt spell ba... went to another fou tang... then at nite had dinner at a veg restuarant.. then come back sg liaoz... bloody hell along the way got traffic jam lah... accident lah... -.-" m'sia road really cannot make it... then all this stupid things drag our time sia... and we arnd 11.20pm then reach sg.. so tired and boring trip... kaoz... i swear tt i wont go with them anymore man... k lah.. tt's abt all wait till i've uplaoded the pic i'll let u all noe again... gtg to slp laioz.. ah bo tml cannot wake up in time to book in... gdnite all... *YaWnZzz*

2005-06-30T10:56:00.000+08:00

woo... tiring sia... this morning wake up extra early then usual... becos i need to draw vehicle out and drive my officer to jurong camp.. nowadays new men cannot make it... ask them to help do duties like will kill them sia... nnb... wan to play this way izzit? nvm... they're not gonna have gd life liaoz... they gonna sign tons of extra liaoz... duty so hard to do izzit? simple things also dunno how to do... simple report also do wrong... didnt bother to check out also... they gonna give them lots of weekend duties liaoz... make sure they will be "seasoned" till they noe wat is call do duties willingly aqnd shut their big gap up... haiz... later still have to drive to chongpang camp and maybe got some recce to do... see how ba... tink i gonna leave early today also.. tml nite goin to m'sia liaoz.. hmmm wonder how it's gonna be.. hope it's gonna be fun or rather relaxing ba...

2005-06-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz... back from my chalet liaoz... hmmm how will i rate it... it's half fun half sux... haha... the best part is the 1st day and 2nd day de 1st half ba... mi and my bro and cousin reach the chalet at 7+ damn shock... the room small like... haiz... very jialat.. dunno how to discribe it... then at 8 we went for a swim.. haha... the pool quite ok lah... ranging from the depth of 0.9m - 2.0m haha.. small pool but got nice depth huh... haha.. then my bro dunno how to swim... and almost drown himself.. haha... then tt nite went down to palawan beach there de 7-eleven to buy some tibits and drinks... haha... then at nite stay in the chalet watch the chinese show "yin yang lu" i watch until fall asleep.. haha boring show? dunno lehz.. keke.. den wake up in the morning at 7:30 thanks to my cousin.. set alarm.. then he himself nv wake up... basket.. all sleep until noon the went down to siloso beach for a swim.. did some sun tanning.. kinda burnt now.. haha.. but i look abit darker now k? haha so considered sun tanning success! haha.. then in the evenin the boring part come.. adults are really GONG! tell them underwater world alight.. they go alight at musical fountain.. such a big diff sia... then we even have to go and fetch them... :/ then my grandma power.. steamboat in chalet.. luckily nv get caught... this kind of chalet 1 time enuff liao... scare ppl to death.. then on sunday morning we left the chalet liaoz.. it was quite a mess i'll say haha.. this friday nite goin to kuantan le.. hmmm looking forward...

2005-06-24T09:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm back to blog again... this may be my last entry for this week... cos later goin to chalet liaoz... haha.. got a so called family chalet lah.. but mostly tonite onli have mi and my cousin in the chalet onli... the adults will onli be over mostly tml ba.. haiz... it's suppose to be a very look forward chalet... but not anymore for mi now... cos my house tt siao kia had gone crazy again... i dunno for wat... he throw all my stuff... come on lor... for wat f u throw my things? it's my room.. it's my stuff.. u have totally no right to throw my stuff man. damn u old bastard! suan liaoz... last nite when i reach home i was juz standing down there and stun... for the 1st time he stun mi this time... i swear man.. if i ever have the chance to get to ur room and open ur cupboard... u gonna be dead meat... u see how much stuff of urs i'll throw away... try mi lah... tml he better dun come... but nvm lah... tonite i'll go over and chill out 1st.. tink i'll bring my bro along ba... hehe... last nite was such a happening nite... acc PL go buy some stuff.. then she go back then i head back home to take some of my stuff.. then argue with tt old bastard.. then left home early... and lastly i found myself rotting at yishun.. as i can book in by 2359 mah... but it's really far too bored lah.. so i went back camp at 11+... then chat on phone for awhile then sleep liaoz... haha... then lie on bed and fall asleep unknowingly... haha... even alarm also forget to set... luckily got ppl morning call mi... thankz for the morning call ^-^ k lah.... tt should be all ba... gtg... bye... maybe come back from chalet liao then blog again ba...

2005-06-22T09:22:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz!!! i'm back! well.... guess i'm crazy.. come back onli shout shout shout... haha... well... these 2 days moods are kinda better... cos i got 2 days off.., can get my hands off some army works... which is driving mi crazy really soon... well... wat did i really do for these 2 days... hmmm well.. today is my 2nd day of off lah.. somemore now still morning... so i dunno wat will happen today lah... as for yesterday... in the noon i went down to toa payoh to check out mobile phone price... wanted to check my K750i de price... woo it's quite ex sia... all ranging from $700+ to $800++ sia.... damn ex... at the same time also check out siemen SF65 de price.. quite ex also... all min $700+ de... bo bian.... cos somebony lost her SF65 lah... haha... after checking out the price... went back home rest.. for awhile... PL called mi... then went down to toa payoh again.. i was like... "woot! i'm back!" haha actually i'm quite tired... but nvm lah... she very blur de lah... later let her go alone alsp dunno she will kanna "chop vegetable head" anot.. haha.. after working for a few hours... she finally decided to guai guai buy the Nokia 7270.. haha... after tt went over to her house use her net to help her find hp theme.. ppl complaint the theme very ugly mah... haha... and finally reached home at 1+ haha... oh ya... guys.... dun try drinking the Qoo in a large amount... like 1.5litre in a shot... cos last nite i juz tried it... and tt's the 1st time i drink something sweet until i feel drunk... really drunk... feel giddy and feel like vomitting sia... i promise myself i'll not touch tt drink for at least 6mth sia... scary... haha... k lah... nth much to blog le.. maybe later go JP play game ba... bye! take care all! will be back to blog again later ba.. hope so huh... keke... :P

2005-06-20T13:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm... here i am to blog again... actually dun have much to blog also... juz happen to have a lappy to use now.. then blog blog abit lor.. hmmm today wake up at 7.... wash up and change... then get back to office to do my duty again... seem to have endless duty to do sia... i goin crazy le lah!!! but bo bian.. was tinking of getting off tml and wed lehz... dunno can anot... mjuz ask encik 1st... but up till now i still havent see him yet... where is he?!?!?!?! haiz.... haha reqlly nth to write liao sia.. see how lah... oh ya.. today got 2 new men post to our bty... gd sia... 1 technician and 1 signaller... haha.. gdgd.. more ppl to help out in duties liaoz.. and more ppl to choose to throw my arrow at... this bunch of new men kinda cannot make it... damn slack and lazy... muz tekan them jialat jialat liaoz.. hehe... *evil laugh* :P

2005-06-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

haiz..... so long long long nv update le.... wel.. nv update also nobody cares also wat... kinda dun see the need of this bloggy liaoz... hmmm let mi see wat have i done for this week.... well..... guess i didnt do anything much... juz tt i have been stuck in the camp for whole damn 1 week... got tons and tons of duties to do.... haiz... onli got thrusday can come out for awhile... for the whole of last week.. beside doin duties i have to do driving also.... help my battalion do driving.. as we're moving to a new building... the new building is quite nice sia... really ma jiam chalet tt time... even the new office is so much more better... better air con.... bigger space... and all the gd chairs for us to sit... haha... how gd it is... den for my weekend... went to suntec to play my same old game... midnight maximum tune 2.... not bad lah.... currently i've got the level of Class A level 1... gonna get to Class S soon... ^^ and after today's playing... i got a total of 350 stars liaoz... not very much rite?? haiz... no life mah... juz wan to get more stars tt's all. to make mi feel happy over something ba... haha... k lah... goin back to camp later le.. hopefully this week my encik will ask mi to clear off or wat ba.... k lah... gtg.. all of u take care huh... for those who did come in to see my blog... haiz.... feel so lifeless..... :(

2005-06-11T09:01:00.000+08:00

woo..... gd morning! haha.... wah juz wake up sia.... having a split headache now.... haha..... last nite was a really fun nite.... went down to Bugis to meet Daniel and Serene.... and played Maximum tune.... haha... then kanna challenge... nvm... when i look to see who was tt... guess who? it's Chee Ren.... kns... haha.... played a few rnds with him... then he go meet his frens liaoz... and i juz continued my story mode... haha... got a new title last nite... Goddess Of The Highway... haha.... sounds power rite? but i very lousy wan lah.... then Xian Han came down to meet mi also.... as usual.... played a few rnds of games.... he also finally completed his story liaoz.... then we went down to M.S Rush... last nite's music is rather lousy and boring i'll say for the start.... but towards the end it's nice... haha stupid ritE? wait till almost the end then give gd music... basket... haha... tink i've had a bit too much of drink.. thou i didnt get drunk... but i noe i'm at the edge of drunk le... haha.. cos i cannot walk properly... keke... took a cab home... Xian Han vomitted.... LOUSY leh!! haha.. made my way home and wash up abit then slp le... then now Headache!! basket... nvm... later it'll be fine le...hmmmmm wonder wat's my sat gonna be... haha... if got any happening i'll blog again... gtg bye! ^-^/

2005-06-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

woot... i so long nv blog le... haha... well... actually i got nth to blog also... haha... have been quite bz... bz falling sick... haha... the stupid flu is bugging mi!!! DuHz~! fever come and go come and go... nv leave mi alone for more than 2 days..... haiz... recently dun really feel so much le... feel tt everything seems to be so fake to mi... haha... hmmm.... wat have i been bz recently... haha.... ya.... i've been playing my Wangan Midnight Maximum Tune 2.... finally completed it in 1 shot le... the final story is really nice... haha... after completing i got a new title called "The Mircale Knight" but after tt i got a even better title... its called "Odaiba Romance" sounds so nice and peaceful isn't it? haha... now my target in tt game is to coleect as much stars as i can... haha... i've got 180+ stars already.... pray hard for mi hope i can get as much as possible huh... hehe... k lah.... dun wanna type too much le... cough until almost no voice le... gonna book in again later... everybody take care ya? the flu is in the air... haha.... is it better not to feel as much as in the past? i dunno.. i juz feel so isolated and lonely... nobody cares... i'm alone...

2005-06-03T09:18:00.000+08:00

wooo..... good morning!! wat a morning... haha... now i still feels very seh sia.... i wan to sleep.... stupid running nose.... irritating... haha... today not much ppl in our office... we have ppl go for SAF day parade.... NDP rehearsal... and as for mi... later in the noon we're goin to the evergreen old folks home to do some community service.. haha... after tt most likely gonna fall out from there.. hehe... power huh... haiz... also dunno wat to blog liaoz... haha... k lah... gonna return the lappy to my sir liaoz... buaiz...